Jump
This might be a long entry, one that would be able to refresh my mind of how I’m feeling right now in the long run. i'm sort of careful with him, not giving in, well actually i don’t know. It’s hard to be careful when u want to jump into a relationship that feel...soo right...and its a risk, a chance worth taking even though you're already thinking "what if"..it ends...but it doesn’t even matter despite what you’ve been through. the mistakes u made because u just want to be happy no matter what it takes...and after recovering from a broken heart u feel stronger and know that if u do get hurt again, u will heal You can be good no matter what, with or without that someone who cares. But you feel better when theres someone there. We all got to admit, isn’t that one of the purpose in life, to meet the person you’d spend your life with. And what if u avoid these emotions just because u don’t want to get hurt again. Each relationship is a lesson which only helps us to develop even better ones. Why be a coward and miss out on maybe the greatest time you may have. Even if its only for a short time. But you’ll never know if u don’t jump.
Knowing me, im going to make the jump. And walk away with bruises. Well, the thing is I don’t know because everyone is different and each person that enters into our lives has a purpose. Life is just filled with drama and that’s what makes it so exciting. And we will never know how a chapter will end unless we journey through it. And if I walk away now, I will never know and I will always wonder if something great was suppose to happen. I guess im just high from infatuation, but it feels great and I hope to keep feeling this way. I’m also filled with doubt. But I’m too stubborn and blinded to see anything negative from this experience. Well maybe there isn’t anything negative, maybe our minds fool around with us to create even more drama.
My conscious is screwing with me. One moment I’m hopeful that this relationship will be different and be better. That I’ve finally met someone on the same page with me, that everything will be fine and dandy. On the other hand, I have this fear that I’ll be played like a fool. That ill be left broken into many pieces, to the point where I can no longer heal and totally give up. Can u say dramatic.
Reality check, I’m already taking this seriously. Not a very good sign. I’ll write again when I’ve made that jump.
Knowing me, im going to make the jump. And walk away with bruises. Well, the thing is I don’t know because everyone is different and each person that enters into our lives has a purpose. Life is just filled with drama and that’s what makes it so exciting. And we will never know how a chapter will end unless we journey through it. And if I walk away now, I will never know and I will always wonder if something great was suppose to happen. I guess im just high from infatuation, but it feels great and I hope to keep feeling this way. I’m also filled with doubt. But I’m too stubborn and blinded to see anything negative from this experience. Well maybe there isn’t anything negative, maybe our minds fool around with us to create even more drama.
My conscious is screwing with me. One moment I’m hopeful that this relationship will be different and be better. That I’ve finally met someone on the same page with me, that everything will be fine and dandy. On the other hand, I have this fear that I’ll be played like a fool. That ill be left broken into many pieces, to the point where I can no longer heal and totally give up. Can u say dramatic.
Reality check, I’m already taking this seriously. Not a very good sign. I’ll write again when I’ve made that jump.