15:15 7-18-81
"All the days of the afflicted are evil: but he that is of a merry heart hath a continual feast." proverbs 15:15
july 18, 1981, 15:15. that moment to now. seems like forever, every moment lasts seconds minutes hours, it varies with the value of that moment. most of those moments I favored worry, fear, & sorrow over anything else...because I could rely on it, even if it wasn't always true. I want was real, honest, true all the time. Lies don't do it for me, even if they sound better or feel less painful, a lie is a lie. But maybe that's not how the world works. Focusing on the cold outlines of life has made me miss so much, to the point where I can't tell if I'm making my own truths up. Where's my control of destiny? I feel like I've lost it... or caused myself to lose interest in it for so long, it takes someone who's stubborn enough to care to force me to realize that I just can't continue this way. Impacting who's around me, I never really thought that I did so much till now. Everyone does. Even the ones who hide. Even the ones who have no concept of who they are or those who do.
Your world only ends if you want it to.
It's time I changed my view.
july 18, 1981, 15:15. that moment to now. seems like forever, every moment lasts seconds minutes hours, it varies with the value of that moment. most of those moments I favored worry, fear, & sorrow over anything else...because I could rely on it, even if it wasn't always true. I want was real, honest, true all the time. Lies don't do it for me, even if they sound better or feel less painful, a lie is a lie. But maybe that's not how the world works. Focusing on the cold outlines of life has made me miss so much, to the point where I can't tell if I'm making my own truths up. Where's my control of destiny? I feel like I've lost it... or caused myself to lose interest in it for so long, it takes someone who's stubborn enough to care to force me to realize that I just can't continue this way. Impacting who's around me, I never really thought that I did so much till now. Everyone does. Even the ones who hide. Even the ones who have no concept of who they are or those who do.
Your world only ends if you want it to.
It's time I changed my view.