*Flashback*
I trudged along the pathway..towards the object to which I knew. I knew where it was. I didn't have to be led to it. My instincts knew where it was. My uncle Brian and Jim and Bev came with me. We walked to the place with my little brothers in tow. Memories of the event flashed back into my mind. Its been almost a year about 3 months shy of a year. But memories quickly went through my head and out at he same time. As I walked to the spot..I ignored the others talking and just looked at the name.. "Kenneth Scheumann..father to Brent,Brian and Todd". And now seeing my grandma's name beside my grandfather's but just having her birthdate on it. And right next to hers is my Uncle Brians the same thing, and I knew when the other dates would come..when they pass away. I looked back over at my grandpa's and seeing..Jan.14,2002
Memories flashed back..actually the memories started to form when I was on the road to it.
Memories of getting out of 5th hour(Holloway's class) rushing home hugging my father..to riding up there in complete silence..only listening to my little brothers question my mom and dad about whose all going to be in the family now. To the vistitation to tears..to reading Richard's email and responding only to have him respond "Whatever you need Im here"..to having my dog die after he day of the funeral. Having promised to call Alison when I got back and I did. To have Lisa say her condolences and having a tiny laugh..and getting to laugh..to having Miles just give a wave and a tiny smile to me....to having a great big hug from Richard and he calling me steve and asking if I was alright..to coming back to school realizing at one point I only got my sympahies from teachers..and only a few from my friends in there own way..
The present day, it all flashed back to that. And then I realized that I would again miss Miles this Sunday because of it..and I had almost gone to tears..just sitting there just looking out the window.. Anyway I not only missed him, but I missed Lisa and Sarah and Richard as well. I know I've said this time and time again..But they have become such a big part of my life,and I dont know what I would do without them..
I wouldnt know what I would do without my friends either. Thank you guys for just being there..
Even though I dont acknowledge it or anything, but just being with my friends(including Miles and those guys)makes me happy. Even if you dont notice it..little things will add up to the big things..I said once in my head about Mrs.ALlison and Pritchard and a few others that they dont even realize it, but they make me smile always and feel good about me and not have to do anything to gain that..
Well Im tired..Later dudes and dudettes!
Alli~
PS..LOL..I dont want to take away Ashleys fire here but my birthday is in 46 days!!
Memories flashed back..actually the memories started to form when I was on the road to it.
Memories of getting out of 5th hour(Holloway's class) rushing home hugging my father..to riding up there in complete silence..only listening to my little brothers question my mom and dad about whose all going to be in the family now. To the vistitation to tears..to reading Richard's email and responding only to have him respond "Whatever you need Im here"..to having my dog die after he day of the funeral. Having promised to call Alison when I got back and I did. To have Lisa say her condolences and having a tiny laugh..and getting to laugh..to having Miles just give a wave and a tiny smile to me....to having a great big hug from Richard and he calling me steve and asking if I was alright..to coming back to school realizing at one point I only got my sympahies from teachers..and only a few from my friends in there own way..
The present day, it all flashed back to that. And then I realized that I would again miss Miles this Sunday because of it..and I had almost gone to tears..just sitting there just looking out the window.. Anyway I not only missed him, but I missed Lisa and Sarah and Richard as well. I know I've said this time and time again..But they have become such a big part of my life,and I dont know what I would do without them..
I wouldnt know what I would do without my friends either. Thank you guys for just being there..
Even though I dont acknowledge it or anything, but just being with my friends(including Miles and those guys)makes me happy. Even if you dont notice it..little things will add up to the big things..I said once in my head about Mrs.ALlison and Pritchard and a few others that they dont even realize it, but they make me smile always and feel good about me and not have to do anything to gain that..
Well Im tired..Later dudes and dudettes!
Alli~
PS..LOL..I dont want to take away Ashleys fire here but my birthday is in 46 days!!