Nothing special....
This is a pointless entry so you can skip if ya want..
Alrighty..where to start where to start on this entry? Do I want to do this entry or not? What should I say in it? Who should I mention in this journal entry? Why am I actually doing this entry to begin with?
Well I cant really answer those questions except for the last one. Because I questioned myself for a half hour to an hour of my time tonight what to type.
Misty and I talked again tonight(wow what a shocker there) anyways Valentines Day came up out of the blue. So my first guess send them to my friends right? To Sean right? NO!! That wasn't my first person who I thought about. I don't know how it all came up. But I told her I needed to send one to Dan this year.
Wow where did that come from? Dan? Dan who? Who the hell is Dan? Yes, I wanted to send one to Dan..but the question is the perfect one..the perfect card what would it be? what would it look like? what kind of card would you want? A friendship card? An I love you card? A kisses card? A Hug card? What kind of card would be perfect for Dan and I's relationship right now?
Well im not too stupid or an idiot to think that he loves me and that were together..cause we are not..and he doesn't love me and yes I have moved on for that..but I wanted it to symbolized what happened five years ago in highschool. I wanted it to have a rose. So yes I chose one with a rose..
But the hardest thing wasn't finding the site for the card? Or picking fo the card because I did have a picture of what I wanted on it? No...the hardest thing for me was the writing the message part of it. I didnt know what the hell I was going to say to him. I didnt know. I usually always have something to say to him after a few minutes of thinking. But no..that didnt happen.
I sat down at my laptop starring at my screen for a few minutes while Misty kept on texting me..God bless her I love her. I then decided I needed music so I turned on the itunes on my computer and started listening to music..and after a few minutes of that..I finally told misty. Im like Im stuck. i have no freakin' clue what to say to him...I even told misty this and shes like do you need help with the words? I told her no because I wanted it to be in my own words and her helping me out it would just be her words. shes soo good with words its crazy..lol..but she is a great email writer or whatever haha!! 143 misty..haha
Anyways I then told her after a few just give me 5-10min. to think about what to say. Thinking it would help me out..so I got off the computer(well not exactly but stepped away) and just walked around the room thinking just thinking and listening to George straits two songs that I was listening too..lol..not helping at all if I might add. So I came back after exactly 10min. and said to misty I have nothing..lol.. I even told her if it was worth it? I told her maybe this is a good sign, that I have moved on and I dont really need him anymore. God was that me saying that? Yes it was. I said it. I said maybe I moved on.
This is the problem with Richard and Miles..I have so moved passed them that I dont really contact any of them...they are so far out of my reach..well Miles isn't but yah..there both at my finger tips; with miles i can contact him by texting him and with Richard i could just send an email to him, but do I do those things anymore? No I don't.
Anyways after I said those things to misty..she was like "awww..." and then I figured damn it I wont let this friendship drop..and I said Damn..yes I said Damn..I said damn gonna said this valentines card whether i want to or not..its sort of like a habit. Misty then gave me an option she was just like just say I hope you have a great Valentines Day..or Have a good Valentines day..one of those. I seriously laughed I think at that thinking dude that was the easy way out, and thats the cowards way out.
I was this close to using it after 30min. of nothing to write, but then I decided since i didnt write him a January email I could use that information and start wriiting it and combine my January/February/Valentines Day email card. So thats what i did. It took me half hour to think about what to write and it took 10min. to write it all out and send it.
So why did it take me that long to write? I usually open up to people while writing? But why did it take that long for me to write it out? I dont know what..i didnt expect it to take that long? Oh well its done and its sent even though i realize I missed saying one thing, but that can wait until later on. Cause I dont know his exact birthday I was gonna send it with the V-day thing but that didnt happen..
Anyways this was a pointless entry i think but its all good..I like pointless entries sometimes, but for those who want to know a point in this entry..here it is.
1. Daddy's Birthday is tomorrow
2. Still no sean
3. A good chance of getting a car tomorrow!! how exciting is that? 2004 Kia..lol..the plan is to get the car and drive it for a week or something with mom and dad and then try out for the DL..so I'll post on how that goes..
love you all..
Alrighty..where to start where to start on this entry? Do I want to do this entry or not? What should I say in it? Who should I mention in this journal entry? Why am I actually doing this entry to begin with?
Well I cant really answer those questions except for the last one. Because I questioned myself for a half hour to an hour of my time tonight what to type.
Misty and I talked again tonight(wow what a shocker there) anyways Valentines Day came up out of the blue. So my first guess send them to my friends right? To Sean right? NO!! That wasn't my first person who I thought about. I don't know how it all came up. But I told her I needed to send one to Dan this year.
Wow where did that come from? Dan? Dan who? Who the hell is Dan? Yes, I wanted to send one to Dan..but the question is the perfect one..the perfect card what would it be? what would it look like? what kind of card would you want? A friendship card? An I love you card? A kisses card? A Hug card? What kind of card would be perfect for Dan and I's relationship right now?
Well im not too stupid or an idiot to think that he loves me and that were together..cause we are not..and he doesn't love me and yes I have moved on for that..but I wanted it to symbolized what happened five years ago in highschool. I wanted it to have a rose. So yes I chose one with a rose..
But the hardest thing wasn't finding the site for the card? Or picking fo the card because I did have a picture of what I wanted on it? No...the hardest thing for me was the writing the message part of it. I didnt know what the hell I was going to say to him. I didnt know. I usually always have something to say to him after a few minutes of thinking. But no..that didnt happen.
I sat down at my laptop starring at my screen for a few minutes while Misty kept on texting me..God bless her I love her. I then decided I needed music so I turned on the itunes on my computer and started listening to music..and after a few minutes of that..I finally told misty. Im like Im stuck. i have no freakin' clue what to say to him...I even told misty this and shes like do you need help with the words? I told her no because I wanted it to be in my own words and her helping me out it would just be her words. shes soo good with words its crazy..lol..but she is a great email writer or whatever haha!! 143 misty..haha
Anyways I then told her after a few just give me 5-10min. to think about what to say. Thinking it would help me out..so I got off the computer(well not exactly but stepped away) and just walked around the room thinking just thinking and listening to George straits two songs that I was listening too..lol..not helping at all if I might add. So I came back after exactly 10min. and said to misty I have nothing..lol.. I even told her if it was worth it? I told her maybe this is a good sign, that I have moved on and I dont really need him anymore. God was that me saying that? Yes it was. I said it. I said maybe I moved on.
This is the problem with Richard and Miles..I have so moved passed them that I dont really contact any of them...they are so far out of my reach..well Miles isn't but yah..there both at my finger tips; with miles i can contact him by texting him and with Richard i could just send an email to him, but do I do those things anymore? No I don't.
Anyways after I said those things to misty..she was like "awww..." and then I figured damn it I wont let this friendship drop..and I said Damn..yes I said Damn..I said damn gonna said this valentines card whether i want to or not..its sort of like a habit. Misty then gave me an option she was just like just say I hope you have a great Valentines Day..or Have a good Valentines day..one of those. I seriously laughed I think at that thinking dude that was the easy way out, and thats the cowards way out.
I was this close to using it after 30min. of nothing to write, but then I decided since i didnt write him a January email I could use that information and start wriiting it and combine my January/February/Valentines Day email card. So thats what i did. It took me half hour to think about what to write and it took 10min. to write it all out and send it.
So why did it take me that long to write? I usually open up to people while writing? But why did it take that long for me to write it out? I dont know what..i didnt expect it to take that long? Oh well its done and its sent even though i realize I missed saying one thing, but that can wait until later on. Cause I dont know his exact birthday I was gonna send it with the V-day thing but that didnt happen..
Anyways this was a pointless entry i think but its all good..I like pointless entries sometimes, but for those who want to know a point in this entry..here it is.
1. Daddy's Birthday is tomorrow
2. Still no sean
3. A good chance of getting a car tomorrow!! how exciting is that? 2004 Kia..lol..the plan is to get the car and drive it for a week or something with mom and dad and then try out for the DL..so I'll post on how that goes..
love you all..