Happy Belated Birthday...
Hey Richard...
My annual letter to you is a day late. So sorry.. but I did email you yesterday afternoon..and I love that you responded back to me, even though if I had emailed you yesterday after you responded you wouldn't email me back for that one..lol.. Cause i know you! Haha yes I think I do on that count. But I hope all is good with you and it is. I still miss you sometimes and this past week has been guiding me back towards you...even though I have moved on from previous years...I've moved away from wanting to see you ever y week or hour or month or whatever. Im moving away from you which is good for me. Me I'm doing fine and I'll probably email you again when it actually happens....so i can get your words of wisdom that ilove and that i know you'll be with me in spirit.
Anyways I know this isn't as long as my other ones but i do miss you but I know now that I can live without your presence and that knowlingly I can do that is great. Even though I still write to you often now in my personal journal that i started writing in about 4 years ago. I find myself writing you a letter still, but within that letter or entry im talking about something else other than you and how much I've missed you and all of that. reading earlier entries granted me that I was thought that I was in love with you..my writing to you in that book made it sound like it and now I laugh about it when I re-read some of those entries..i just laugh at myself and how desperate I sounded.. Now its only a couple of words of I miss you or I thought about you and thats about it...but other than that the entries are about other things and I'm happy about that.
I think thats all for now. Until next year or whenever I feel the urge to write about you here(livejournal) Just remember your always in my heart but not always on my mind constantly..lol..and I wont ever forget the stuff you taught me and the laughs we shared..you helped the person I am today and I thank you for that..
Love ya
Steve
PS..and dude besides the hugs i just miss your voice calling me steve..lol..I should have just recorded it..lmao!
Theres some good news. Grandpa was taken off life-support Sunday and he's heart is still beating and so he is still with us. The question remains though when he will leave us or if he will this month..but I think he will its just a question of when.
I also got my phone a sidekick 3 so I can text! lol..im excited..lmao..
My annual letter to you is a day late. So sorry.. but I did email you yesterday afternoon..and I love that you responded back to me, even though if I had emailed you yesterday after you responded you wouldn't email me back for that one..lol.. Cause i know you! Haha yes I think I do on that count. But I hope all is good with you and it is. I still miss you sometimes and this past week has been guiding me back towards you...even though I have moved on from previous years...I've moved away from wanting to see you ever y week or hour or month or whatever. Im moving away from you which is good for me. Me I'm doing fine and I'll probably email you again when it actually happens....so i can get your words of wisdom that ilove and that i know you'll be with me in spirit.
Anyways I know this isn't as long as my other ones but i do miss you but I know now that I can live without your presence and that knowlingly I can do that is great. Even though I still write to you often now in my personal journal that i started writing in about 4 years ago. I find myself writing you a letter still, but within that letter or entry im talking about something else other than you and how much I've missed you and all of that. reading earlier entries granted me that I was thought that I was in love with you..my writing to you in that book made it sound like it and now I laugh about it when I re-read some of those entries..i just laugh at myself and how desperate I sounded.. Now its only a couple of words of I miss you or I thought about you and thats about it...but other than that the entries are about other things and I'm happy about that.
I think thats all for now. Until next year or whenever I feel the urge to write about you here(livejournal) Just remember your always in my heart but not always on my mind constantly..lol..and I wont ever forget the stuff you taught me and the laughs we shared..you helped the person I am today and I thank you for that..
Love ya
Steve
PS..and dude besides the hugs i just miss your voice calling me steve..lol..I should have just recorded it..lmao!
Theres some good news. Grandpa was taken off life-support Sunday and he's heart is still beating and so he is still with us. The question remains though when he will leave us or if he will this month..but I think he will its just a question of when.
I also got my phone a sidekick 3 so I can text! lol..im excited..lmao..