Never Too Far
Hey guys,
Do you guys ever wonder "if he/she is the one for you" If you have the sudden connection and it wont go away? Have you ever felt like nothing is going to stand in your way. Are you obessive about something. Cant get him off your mind. Gosh thats sounds a lot like me..
Let me explain myself. My family and I went out camping this past weekend. It was with our church. I decided to go because I didnt have that much to do anyway. Thinking about someone all weekend takes a tole to your heart at times.
The weekend was great everyone was nice and stuff but as I said before these guys never stranded out of my mind for very long. Who I talking about is Richard and Miles. I know you journal that you get sick and tired of hearing their names but its hard to comprehend and forget what they have done for me.
Anyways Richard couldn't come so I kept him in the back of my mind all the time I was there. I even dreamt about him the first night... His other family came. His in-laws(I guess thats what there called) came,his wife's sister came with her children and boyfriends. The Arnott's. They are an aweseome family. I was soo excited to meet 3 out of the 5 "Just Cuz" members. *Just Cuz is a group that Richard has put together*. I was really exciting. Pam(the mom) was like I recognize you. Your Allison. I was like yeah. My mom and I were sitting across from the Arnott parents while..Sarah and Amy sat next to their parents with there boyfriends. She was like yeah..Richard has told me that you and him hung-out a lot in New Orleans. My heart literally fluttered in saying this because you know Richard. He is a quiet shy guys...just my type.
Anyway I was already happy that I got to meet Richards family. My mom was agreeing to them saying yeah she and Richard got "closer" together that week. All I was like I love Richard. Then Sarah and Amy spoke up and said "That doesnt sound like Uncle Ricahrd to me. There dad was like if you get him on the right subject he talks. Everyone agreed to that. And I commented to them they should have seen him down there. LOL!
But the sad part in the whole conversation was that...Pam said that Richard didnt really want to go. Ann(his wife) had to try to convince him to go and have fun. SHe was like the highschool kids want to probably know the guy behind the piano. I agreed. But its like Im glad that Ann convinced him of coming or else I wouldnt really know him like I do now. So I just glad.
Anyway..Richard wasnt too far from my mind that night. You can call me selfish,hypocrite for thinking that I am going after a older and yet married guy thats twice my age here. I know its wrong and stupid. And I have realized that this past weekend, month or so. But my mom is right about one thing I do love Richard. My mom gave an example that lightened up my mood and then I realized what my relationship with Richard and Milo were. She gave an example of Lulu and "John" and she told the Arnott's about the story and that "John" was there for Lulu when her father died. He is like a second father to her. And so from that I realize that Richard and Milo are second dads to me. Milo is just a big brother type person.
That example shows that I shouldnt really care about Richard like I do. I dont think my mom understands it,but I guess I was wrong.
As I said I didnt see either Milo or Richard this weekend. Which really mad me cry for the past few days or nights(whatever you want to call it)but I guess I realize that I just needed to feel there presence. I love them and I thank-god for everything. Richard, Milo and I and the others will always have that connection of New Orleans!
On Sunday when I came back I went to game-night not expecting to have any fun. I didnt really have much fun. Because our "youth leader" Lisa said the magic words. "Miles" Then my night was ruined for some parts of my heart! LOL!
You see there never to far from my mind and hopefully that will change when I am in love with someone but for now...Miles and Richard will have to do. Because they make me laugh and smile(I know Im repeating myself)
God Bless You
Alli(Steve)
This is dedicated to those who are never to far from my mind...friends,family,richard and milo. I love you guys!
Never too far away
I won
Do you guys ever wonder "if he/she is the one for you" If you have the sudden connection and it wont go away? Have you ever felt like nothing is going to stand in your way. Are you obessive about something. Cant get him off your mind. Gosh thats sounds a lot like me..
Let me explain myself. My family and I went out camping this past weekend. It was with our church. I decided to go because I didnt have that much to do anyway. Thinking about someone all weekend takes a tole to your heart at times.
The weekend was great everyone was nice and stuff but as I said before these guys never stranded out of my mind for very long. Who I talking about is Richard and Miles. I know you journal that you get sick and tired of hearing their names but its hard to comprehend and forget what they have done for me.
Anyways Richard couldn't come so I kept him in the back of my mind all the time I was there. I even dreamt about him the first night... His other family came. His in-laws(I guess thats what there called) came,his wife's sister came with her children and boyfriends. The Arnott's. They are an aweseome family. I was soo excited to meet 3 out of the 5 "Just Cuz" members. *Just Cuz is a group that Richard has put together*. I was really exciting. Pam(the mom) was like I recognize you. Your Allison. I was like yeah. My mom and I were sitting across from the Arnott parents while..Sarah and Amy sat next to their parents with there boyfriends. She was like yeah..Richard has told me that you and him hung-out a lot in New Orleans. My heart literally fluttered in saying this because you know Richard. He is a quiet shy guys...just my type.
Anyway I was already happy that I got to meet Richards family. My mom was agreeing to them saying yeah she and Richard got "closer" together that week. All I was like I love Richard. Then Sarah and Amy spoke up and said "That doesnt sound like Uncle Ricahrd to me. There dad was like if you get him on the right subject he talks. Everyone agreed to that. And I commented to them they should have seen him down there. LOL!
But the sad part in the whole conversation was that...Pam said that Richard didnt really want to go. Ann(his wife) had to try to convince him to go and have fun. SHe was like the highschool kids want to probably know the guy behind the piano. I agreed. But its like Im glad that Ann convinced him of coming or else I wouldnt really know him like I do now. So I just glad.
Anyway..Richard wasnt too far from my mind that night. You can call me selfish,hypocrite for thinking that I am going after a older and yet married guy thats twice my age here. I know its wrong and stupid. And I have realized that this past weekend, month or so. But my mom is right about one thing I do love Richard. My mom gave an example that lightened up my mood and then I realized what my relationship with Richard and Milo were. She gave an example of Lulu and "John" and she told the Arnott's about the story and that "John" was there for Lulu when her father died. He is like a second father to her. And so from that I realize that Richard and Milo are second dads to me. Milo is just a big brother type person.
That example shows that I shouldnt really care about Richard like I do. I dont think my mom understands it,but I guess I was wrong.
As I said I didnt see either Milo or Richard this weekend. Which really mad me cry for the past few days or nights(whatever you want to call it)but I guess I realize that I just needed to feel there presence. I love them and I thank-god for everything. Richard, Milo and I and the others will always have that connection of New Orleans!
On Sunday when I came back I went to game-night not expecting to have any fun. I didnt really have much fun. Because our "youth leader" Lisa said the magic words. "Miles" Then my night was ruined for some parts of my heart! LOL!
You see there never to far from my mind and hopefully that will change when I am in love with someone but for now...Miles and Richard will have to do. Because they make me laugh and smile(I know Im repeating myself)
God Bless You
Alli(Steve)
This is dedicated to those who are never to far from my mind...friends,family,richard and milo. I love you guys!
Never too far away
I won