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Well a lot has happend to me lately...I dont know wheather to just give up or just keep on going. Nathan and I havent been doing so good. AT all, :( Makes me sader then sad. If thats makes sense. More like heart broken, and idk what to do. Nathan went away to camp and found another girl chelsea he liked, well lets see i found out yesterday that they kissed and well he was going to leave me for her a few days before hand but then he realized he loved me soo much and im the girl of his "dreams". I dont know what to do though, Wheather or not to see if he really did realize it and it toook him to almost loose me to realize it or if he may just be bull shitting me. Well yesterday we were in an argument, and now well today his rents gavehim a bad report to his prohbation officer so he might eiather go to juvie for r2 weeks or be on house arrest for longer time. Meaning he cant really talkto me much. and hes real angry at me but its not all my fault :( idk what to do.
I just want to see him, our 9 months is tomorrow. We were going to spend it with one another and now look. Shit hit the fan and we cant and i dont know what to do, cry or just go fucking throw things across my god damn room. I hate ranting but i dont kno what to honestly do. I love this boy with all my heart and i do more then his parents do. isnt that fucking pathetic? what parent would want to see there child locked up? His, and its so wrong over something like him andhis gf arguing. ugh! they're all a bunch of fucking ass holes i swear. I just dont know where my life is going now...
I need to move on, and i need friends again. Bleh. Im so lonely.
The end of my amazing journal entry.
FUCK!
I just want to see him, our 9 months is tomorrow. We were going to spend it with one another and now look. Shit hit the fan and we cant and i dont know what to do, cry or just go fucking throw things across my god damn room. I hate ranting but i dont kno what to honestly do. I love this boy with all my heart and i do more then his parents do. isnt that fucking pathetic? what parent would want to see there child locked up? His, and its so wrong over something like him andhis gf arguing. ugh! they're all a bunch of fucking ass holes i swear. I just dont know where my life is going now...
I need to move on, and i need friends again. Bleh. Im so lonely.
The end of my amazing journal entry.
FUCK!