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last night was horrible.
i cried until i honestly couldnt cry anymore.
i would try to stop..and it wouldnt work.
people can play such a huge part on people emotions..
and this time..they got the best of me.
im tired of everyone putting me down.
telling me to change who i am.
just telling me all the things that are wrong about who i am.
i want someone who wants me..for me.
im tried of trying to please everyone. i should be more concerned about myself
but im not.
and ugggh. people just really know how to tear a person apart.
i sat in my room and cried..and cried..and cried.
just thinking about what people have said and everything made it worse.
i woke up this morning and my eyes were swollen from crying so much, hahaha.
embarassing..but true.
im just sick of everyone around here.
i dont even know how to explain the people around here.
i think they honestly think they were put on earth to make other people feel like the lowest piece of shit possible.
ya know what, its working.
so stop.
last night i just wanted to pack my bags and leave.
i dont have anyone here i can turn to..other than kalee.
but still..i dont want to be here any longer.
i cant wait until july...
i start training tomorrow..
ugh.=[
im getting so stressed out its not even funny.
about everything.
school..and trying to make sure i do my absolute best.
stuff at home..my grandparents..lanie..the money i need to make..
asmdoiajs.
i just wish i had a remote or something and i could just pause for a minute and breathe..
i cried until i honestly couldnt cry anymore.
i would try to stop..and it wouldnt work.
people can play such a huge part on people emotions..
and this time..they got the best of me.
im tired of everyone putting me down.
telling me to change who i am.
just telling me all the things that are wrong about who i am.
i want someone who wants me..for me.
im tried of trying to please everyone. i should be more concerned about myself
but im not.
and ugggh. people just really know how to tear a person apart.
i sat in my room and cried..and cried..and cried.
just thinking about what people have said and everything made it worse.
i woke up this morning and my eyes were swollen from crying so much, hahaha.
embarassing..but true.
im just sick of everyone around here.
i dont even know how to explain the people around here.
i think they honestly think they were put on earth to make other people feel like the lowest piece of shit possible.
ya know what, its working.
so stop.
last night i just wanted to pack my bags and leave.
i dont have anyone here i can turn to..other than kalee.
but still..i dont want to be here any longer.
i cant wait until july...
i start training tomorrow..
ugh.=[
im getting so stressed out its not even funny.
about everything.
school..and trying to make sure i do my absolute best.
stuff at home..my grandparents..lanie..the money i need to make..
asmdoiajs.
i just wish i had a remote or something and i could just pause for a minute and breathe..