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so..this might take awhile.
uhm..the past 10ish days have been some of the most amazing days of my life, ever.
i basically spent every moment i could with tim while he was here..
call me pathetic..but whatever.
i loved every second of it.
i wish i could express how i truely felt in this..but then i know theres some of u who will sit and laugh or make fun. and i dont want that.
so ill keep those feelings to myself and whoever asks/cares.
but yeah.
tim left this morning at 3:30.
i know i should be happy that i was with him all that time anddd right before he left.
but its not enough.
after he left..part of me just wished he would turn around and walk back here and say goodbye to me again..and..just..yeah.
but that didnt happen, of course.
i cried, alot.
and thats not normal for me.
i cry when im hurt..but for me to cry because he's leaving.
idk. maybe its the fact that i wont see him constantly..that im scared of what could/couldnt happen. all i know is that i wish to god he was back here.
its just so..weird. not seeing him.
i was so use to seeing him everyday. and just being with him and stuff and now..
when i want to cuddle all i have is my freakin stuffed animal.=[
uuugh.
im probably being way too dramatic. but i cant help it.
its the way i feel.
i just..idontknow.
i wish i could get out how i truely felt to him.
i have a problem with that.
i hide how i feel, and it usually messes up nething i have going for me.
asiadjf. im shutting up.
on a good note..
the time he was here.
was the best, in my life.
and i wouldnt trade it for the world.
closetdrunks.=]
uhm..the past 10ish days have been some of the most amazing days of my life, ever.
i basically spent every moment i could with tim while he was here..
call me pathetic..but whatever.
i loved every second of it.
i wish i could express how i truely felt in this..but then i know theres some of u who will sit and laugh or make fun. and i dont want that.
so ill keep those feelings to myself and whoever asks/cares.
but yeah.
tim left this morning at 3:30.
i know i should be happy that i was with him all that time anddd right before he left.
but its not enough.
after he left..part of me just wished he would turn around and walk back here and say goodbye to me again..and..just..yeah.
but that didnt happen, of course.
i cried, alot.
and thats not normal for me.
i cry when im hurt..but for me to cry because he's leaving.
idk. maybe its the fact that i wont see him constantly..that im scared of what could/couldnt happen. all i know is that i wish to god he was back here.
its just so..weird. not seeing him.
i was so use to seeing him everyday. and just being with him and stuff and now..
when i want to cuddle all i have is my freakin stuffed animal.=[
uuugh.
im probably being way too dramatic. but i cant help it.
its the way i feel.
i just..idontknow.
i wish i could get out how i truely felt to him.
i have a problem with that.
i hide how i feel, and it usually messes up nething i have going for me.
asiadjf. im shutting up.
on a good note..
the time he was here.
was the best, in my life.
and i wouldnt trade it for the world.
closetdrunks.=]