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ok, so i never actually post anything personal in here, because i figure journals are something private and not meant to be read by everyone. but there are a few things i think i need to say just to get off of my chest.
1. Having low or no expectations or standards in life means that you will never be disappointed. Sadly, this is now how I think/feel.
2. Whenever I think something good is about to happen in my life. For some reason it never does. Some people are never meant to be happy. Maybe I'm just one of those people.
3. I can't stand never being given a chance by certain people. They treat you like shit or think that you are something totally the opposite of what you really are.
4. I cant stand being in a group of people and always feeling like Im the moron of the group. Even though sadly it may be true in certain cases, you do not need to go out of your way to truly make me feel like I am. I try to fit in. And when I think Im finally making some progress, you go and do something that makes fun of me. I try as hard as I can to stay away from people like you, but I just cant help being drawn to people who will wind up hurting me.
5. Im tired of having fake friends. People who I think care about me and what I have to say, but who are just in fact using me or go and talk shit about me the second I walk away. I dont think Ive ever had a real friend in my life. Someone who I can talk to. Someone who wont talk shit about me or make me feel like shit. I just want someone who cares about what I have to say, and who will at least act like they give a damn. But people who are nice and kind and dont treat you like shit dont really exist. So techincally, the whole concept of having friends is overrated. Theyre never there for you when you need them.
6. MySpace is NOT REAL LIFE! I hate to break it to you. But it isnt. All that it is is a popularity contest. The same thing goes for facebook. Both revolve around how many friends you have.
Ive spent my whole life waiting for you to come. Ive spent my whole night waiting for you to call. You never did. I was here waiting and ready to go the second I heard my phone ring. Im still here waiting. Waiting for you to call so I can hear your voice. I dont know how you really feel about me. But I hope that you feel the same way about me that I do about you. Id do anything to make you happy. I hope you know who you are, and that I think I might be in love with you.
1. Having low or no expectations or standards in life means that you will never be disappointed. Sadly, this is now how I think/feel.
2. Whenever I think something good is about to happen in my life. For some reason it never does. Some people are never meant to be happy. Maybe I'm just one of those people.
3. I can't stand never being given a chance by certain people. They treat you like shit or think that you are something totally the opposite of what you really are.
4. I cant stand being in a group of people and always feeling like Im the moron of the group. Even though sadly it may be true in certain cases, you do not need to go out of your way to truly make me feel like I am. I try to fit in. And when I think Im finally making some progress, you go and do something that makes fun of me. I try as hard as I can to stay away from people like you, but I just cant help being drawn to people who will wind up hurting me.
5. Im tired of having fake friends. People who I think care about me and what I have to say, but who are just in fact using me or go and talk shit about me the second I walk away. I dont think Ive ever had a real friend in my life. Someone who I can talk to. Someone who wont talk shit about me or make me feel like shit. I just want someone who cares about what I have to say, and who will at least act like they give a damn. But people who are nice and kind and dont treat you like shit dont really exist. So techincally, the whole concept of having friends is overrated. Theyre never there for you when you need them.
6. MySpace is NOT REAL LIFE! I hate to break it to you. But it isnt. All that it is is a popularity contest. The same thing goes for facebook. Both revolve around how many friends you have.
Ive spent my whole life waiting for you to come. Ive spent my whole night waiting for you to call. You never did. I was here waiting and ready to go the second I heard my phone ring. Im still here waiting. Waiting for you to call so I can hear your voice. I dont know how you really feel about me. But I hope that you feel the same way about me that I do about you. Id do anything to make you happy. I hope you know who you are, and that I think I might be in love with you.