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Hey well omg there are people saying jordan is cheating on me. i like him soo much and i dont want to believe it but its getting to me so i have to talk to jordan about it. so i dont no. im listening to sad music that makes me even more sad i dont no whats wrong. like i go around and act all happy and no one even notices that there is soo much wrong. i just dont no about myself anymore. i dont no how people could date me. im like sick of myself. i realized ive been a bitch and totally taking all of my friends for granted. elsa is pissed at me.. she wants me to dump jordan and i want to be with jordan. she thinks he just wants me for sex. But im not going to let him get that. I want to be able to lay on jordan and have nothing happen. like i want it to be like a real relationship not a little fling thing yuh no. well as of right now im listening to the song "again" by jlo. but like i dont like walking around like everything is perfect when its not. i hate the fake smiling the fake acting happy!! im sick of it of all of it. of ppl thinking they no whats best for me i just cant take it ne more and i cant say ne thing else because im like soo gunna hate myself in teh end if i do so bye!!