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i hate it when you really want to talk to someone, but no one is readily availabe, and u just don't feel important enough to call someone. especially cuz u don't know what you want to talk about. you just kind of feel like you've spent the day needing to act a certain way, trying to make things not difficult, but somehow in the process you kind of created this wall and so you've spent the whole day behind this wall and then someone has a little bit of time to talk but then you just kind of do this thing that you do when you want to be asked about your day but you're not being asked or w/e and you do the thing where you start attacking someone for no reason and then you're like "why the hell did i do that?" but uk what they have to go. and so now you just feel really bad. trapped by your wall. "good night. i love you."