dear numerology: spin on it
i find it fun to occasionally dabble with numerology. just like any form of astrology, some parts of it ring true and others don't, but overall it's an amusing way of doing that very human thing of trying to put patterns to things that may or may not naturally conform to them.
...UNLESS the astrology in question happens to tell you that your whole life sucks and there's nothing you can do about it.
now i'm mainly familiar with kabalah numerology, which is based on ancient hebrew culture. but this morning i found a site that claims to be based on indian numerology. which is different, how, you ask? not sure, other than the name numbers tend to be different based on sound rather than numeric value (which makes a bit more sense to me). since my fate number (the numer you get when you add up all the numbers in your birthdate, which supposedly dictates your entire life) is, like, the worst one EVER to have in kabalah numerology, i thought it might be different in indian numerology. hopeful, i typed in my numbers.
nope.
now, the worst most numerology/astrology books and sites will say about a given number or birth sign or whatever is, 'emotionally repressed; trouble working with others; shy and secretive'; etc. ie, something gently negative, but not too blunt. but dude, the books don't even try to soften the blow with my particular fate number. here's what the indian numerology site has to say about it:
Struggle with opposition, delays, failures, humiliation. Exceptional endurance, persevering, ambitious, success driven, desire fame, and materially oriented. Want to deliver something major in life and manifest a legacy. Isolated from themselves and others. Get entangled with the law and substance abuse, prone to addictions and depression and extreme states of consciousness. Age prematurely, suicidal tendencies, easily feel unwanted, unloved, neglected and rejected. Argumentative, manipulative. Need to learn to harness their considerable powers for the good of all to be satisfied.
...yeah. sheesh.
EDIT: here's what my other numerology book has to say on the matter (especially juicy bits bolded by me):
This fate number is difficult for people to handle. The unpredictability of number (8), fate itself, ensures delays, obstacles, failure and humiliation coming from unknown and unexpected sources. The task is to let go of attachments and to receive karmic rewards. Those having (8) as a fate number and also (8) as a psychic number can admit that they alone are responsible for the disappointments they experience in life. Such disappointments do not therefore come as a surprise to them. When failure is determined by fate, and is unexpected, the reaction to it tends to be self-destructive. The consequences may be unfortunate: lawsuits, loss or disaster. The positive aspect is that human beings can gain wisdom through suffering and hard times. People with (8) as a fate number have great organizational skills because they can reach high positions. If they are interested in spiritual subjects, they may become spiritual guides. As regards to their love lives, scandal always looms on the horizon. Often their marriages are unstable owing to their fear of divorce and separation. They prefer being alone but are afraid of loneliness. They are persevering and often make a name for themselves within their chosen field. Women having (8) as a fate number have difficulties in finding a suitable life partner. Patience and genuine faith are required to overcome these difficulties. With (8) as a fate number such a person is shown who makes the decisions as to how karma should be rewarded. Everything that God gives is a present: Some presents are enjoyable = others are not. The lesson that must be learned by those having (8) as a fate number is that everything they get is a present from God. This may be difficult to accept.
so, everything you touch will fail; you'll never find love; and god hates you. merry fucking christmas; sucks to be you!
now, in both cases, both numerology methods seem to be working on the assumption that you did something hideously terrible in a past life to deserve all the strife you're getting in this one.
well, whatever it was, i hope i really fucking enjoyed it.
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grrrr. fuck you too, numerology. fuck you right in the ear.