Deserving to die...
I hate being told I let someone down or bn told I disappointed someone.. You might as well as kill me if you say that..... I hate it....Well... my lil secret came out... Well it needed to it wasn't right to keep it let alone even do it... Jessica's party was last night it was alot of fun me n Lala played DDR the whole time! Well.. then this morning totally forgeting about my neck my dad goes.. "Megan what the Fuck do you have a hickey on your neck?" Me bn the clever person I am was like " No dad, we had an icing fight last night and it is prolly dye from it" And he believed me.. thank God...That was an act of God seriously... ARGH!! I still totally hate myself for it.. I do.. and I hurt the one person .. that actually cares about me. I'm such an idiot. I really am...If I could take it all back I would.. but I can't... I just wish I could do something... I really need 2 get my priorities in line... I really do.. I need 2 figure out what I want. I need to learn to trust people I need to stop bn so harsh on myself... But its all I know.... I've always been harsh on myself.. I don't always show it.. I just act as everything is okay... UGH! I do hate myself so much sometimes.... ::sighs:: I dunno...
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