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well. tonight was definetly interesting.
went to adoration and all. cried. thought about a lot of things bugging me.
wasn't planning on going out. went straight home.
lincon was supposed to call tonight at 10 my time. he didn't and it's all good. he's with his family so it's not that big of a deal. i want him to have fun. :)
then around 11ish brendan asked if i wanted to chill. i was going to say no but then something made me say yes. so we went to dunkin donuts. we talked. i didn't know how much i needed to talk about things. i have so many things just buzzing around in my head. it was good to finally let them out. i haven't really talked to someone about any of this new stuff. and lincon has been gone for 13 days so i haven't really been able to talk to him about it all. i don't want to make him upset while he is with his family which he never gets to see.
my life has taken a turn. it's not necessarily a bad turn. but it's a change. something i will have to overcome and get used to. i have lincon and many people that are on my side helping me.
it's scary thinking about the future. what it will bring. good or bad? who knows. that's what is so scary.
i can honestly say that i miss lincon. but i think i am ok. a lot better after talking and getting some things out that have been bottled up inside me. i still think i need to keep talking though. it's not over. it's still going on and will be for a loooooong time. but i think that i will be fine. i always am.
only 12 more days till my baby comes home. :) i can't wait. but im soo happy that he got the chance to go back home and meet all of his family. i can't wait to hear all the stories. intersting very interesting.
ok this was def a wierd post. but hey it's late im tired. and i am not really thinking straight. good night all....
toodles
<3 me
went to adoration and all. cried. thought about a lot of things bugging me.
wasn't planning on going out. went straight home.
lincon was supposed to call tonight at 10 my time. he didn't and it's all good. he's with his family so it's not that big of a deal. i want him to have fun. :)
then around 11ish brendan asked if i wanted to chill. i was going to say no but then something made me say yes. so we went to dunkin donuts. we talked. i didn't know how much i needed to talk about things. i have so many things just buzzing around in my head. it was good to finally let them out. i haven't really talked to someone about any of this new stuff. and lincon has been gone for 13 days so i haven't really been able to talk to him about it all. i don't want to make him upset while he is with his family which he never gets to see.
my life has taken a turn. it's not necessarily a bad turn. but it's a change. something i will have to overcome and get used to. i have lincon and many people that are on my side helping me.
it's scary thinking about the future. what it will bring. good or bad? who knows. that's what is so scary.
i can honestly say that i miss lincon. but i think i am ok. a lot better after talking and getting some things out that have been bottled up inside me. i still think i need to keep talking though. it's not over. it's still going on and will be for a loooooong time. but i think that i will be fine. i always am.
only 12 more days till my baby comes home. :) i can't wait. but im soo happy that he got the chance to go back home and meet all of his family. i can't wait to hear all the stories. intersting very interesting.
ok this was def a wierd post. but hey it's late im tired. and i am not really thinking straight. good night all....
toodles
<3 me