guess what you guys?? I'M HERE TO VENT AGAIN!! how weird huh?? lol
well, the title sums up pretty much everythign.. yeah.. whenever i fel down i come here and le it all out. It's better than talking to people who you know will only listen to you out o courtesy and nothign else and they'll pretend ot care only to give you an easy stupid anser at the end.. here people i knwo that cares can read it (joe and nikky), or at least i think they do.. and also i talk to some others and they knwo who they are.. thank you for that.
Well, where can i start.. i dunno, i'm so confused, so down.. is it eva gonna stop?? ever since i moved herei thought things were gogin to be different.. better... and they do are diferent.. but not for the best.. i am so isolated, is like there's noone i can relate to, i miss home, where i could joke arond with my silings and then talk with my folks at night, even thought that didn;t alwys came up right at least we eould try to work it out... here is like no body cares about no body else.. is horribl.. so lonely.. plus i live like fucking days light from society, not that i really knwo people here who i could hag out with but at least i could go out and pig my self out ating my feelings up, but not even that in here. University sux, people in it suck as well.. everything related ot it sux more and more every dy, what am i doing?? sometimes i fee like i';m studying somwthing i'm not supposed to, sometimes i thinng i'm on the right traka nd sometimes i just feel like screaming, getting high and jumping from the buildings roof, which from time to time doesn;t seem like such a bad idea.. how can a person feel this miserable?? this empty?, is happiness somethign that has an expiration date? is it ike somethign that runs empty after you've enjoyed it?? music and movies are all i have left now, i spend the days looking at em and listening to it to try and mak everythign beter, i close my eyes and i can cape reality, but only fora bit, for as we know... nothing gold can stay. Also.. what sdo girls want? what do boys want? they all say there's osmeone outthere for each o us... what if there's not?? how many people do we know that have died single? how to know if ur one of em?? apparently guys n girls don;t only like pretty jerk heads with money and no brain.. but they seem like dislike the ugly good person not rich smart people worse!! what's wrong with everyone?? or am i the wrong one?? whay am i here? i dn;t even fit with the image in the mirror... wha about dreams and hopes?? you;re family always tell you to persue me.... as long as you do what they tell you too.. i know.. they know more for they're old.. but does the times that made them older and wiser is the same time making you older and more stupid?!!! well it seems so.... i actulaly don;t vene know what i'm sayign here, i've said so much bullshit i know i lost sense of my self.. there;s just soo much i want to express but i dunno how ot? i can;t find the words, the colors, the sounds, the expression, nothing!! nothign seems to be good enough to even level up with how i feel and give a basic idea of it.. ugh... how i wish i could just go to sleep and wake up when the world gets better.. but again.. don;t we all want that?? how is it possibel that if apparently there's so much people with so many good ideas and wishes for the world.... how is it possible that we're they way we are, we live the way we live?? why?? how?? dude what the fuck? i don;t veen understand my self!!! if an of you does please help me out!!!........ :S
Well, where can i start.. i dunno, i'm so confused, so down.. is it eva gonna stop?? ever since i moved herei thought things were gogin to be different.. better... and they do are diferent.. but not for the best.. i am so isolated, is like there's noone i can relate to, i miss home, where i could joke arond with my silings and then talk with my folks at night, even thought that didn;t alwys came up right at least we eould try to work it out... here is like no body cares about no body else.. is horribl.. so lonely.. plus i live like fucking days light from society, not that i really knwo people here who i could hag out with but at least i could go out and pig my self out ating my feelings up, but not even that in here. University sux, people in it suck as well.. everything related ot it sux more and more every dy, what am i doing?? sometimes i fee like i';m studying somwthing i'm not supposed to, sometimes i thinng i'm on the right traka nd sometimes i just feel like screaming, getting high and jumping from the buildings roof, which from time to time doesn;t seem like such a bad idea.. how can a person feel this miserable?? this empty?, is happiness somethign that has an expiration date? is it ike somethign that runs empty after you've enjoyed it?? music and movies are all i have left now, i spend the days looking at em and listening to it to try and mak everythign beter, i close my eyes and i can cape reality, but only fora bit, for as we know... nothing gold can stay. Also.. what sdo girls want? what do boys want? they all say there's osmeone outthere for each o us... what if there's not?? how many people do we know that have died single? how to know if ur one of em?? apparently guys n girls don;t only like pretty jerk heads with money and no brain.. but they seem like dislike the ugly good person not rich smart people worse!! what's wrong with everyone?? or am i the wrong one?? whay am i here? i dn;t even fit with the image in the mirror... wha about dreams and hopes?? you;re family always tell you to persue me.... as long as you do what they tell you too.. i know.. they know more for they're old.. but does the times that made them older and wiser is the same time making you older and more stupid?!!! well it seems so.... i actulaly don;t vene know what i'm sayign here, i've said so much bullshit i know i lost sense of my self.. there;s just soo much i want to express but i dunno how ot? i can;t find the words, the colors, the sounds, the expression, nothing!! nothign seems to be good enough to even level up with how i feel and give a basic idea of it.. ugh... how i wish i could just go to sleep and wake up when the world gets better.. but again.. don;t we all want that?? how is it possibel that if apparently there's so much people with so many good ideas and wishes for the world.... how is it possible that we're they way we are, we live the way we live?? why?? how?? dude what the fuck? i don;t veen understand my self!!! if an of you does please help me out!!!........ :S