drama
Been awhile since I have updated..mass shit has been going on..some good some bad..I really realized what guys are all about…it’s a bit frustrating about whats been going on lately…first off im going to say sorry to that someone..u know who are for all the fuckin shiot I have said to you in the past like 2 weeks I know u said u so over it but still that’s not the point the point is that I was overreacting to the 10th power..I just felt..well I cant really put it into words..low is the best word to explain. But that’s all over and I hope we can continue to be friends..which on that note makes me a little sad bc I know that as long as ur going out with her we’re NEVER going to get to hang out..but that’s fine as long as were on talking terms.another thing..so someone told my good friend that they like me and this other girl and this guy called me all the time asked me to hang out and yah ill admit it I did do stuff with him but I had no clue he liked me like that and so when I found out I think I got think I got scared and started to push away cause I didn’t want to lead him on. Now it feels like I hurt his feelings or something and he never calls me anymore..I mean I guess that’s good and bad..and then theres this other guy in which I TJOUGHT I made clear that I didn’t like him like that and I guess he didn’t understand that and for liem a week now has thought I wanted to try to make something of us and now it allk is crumbling down and he feels as if I always blow him off and if he only knew all the shit going on in my life right now he would understand about my absense last weekend..then theres this other guy I met..he turned out to be a total loser..we wont even go into that it will get me hella pissed off and then a old “friend” yah..that’s what ill call him expressed his feelings about me last night in which I felt even more confused then ever after that I wish that him and I could go backj to all our happy times beiong together and I don’t know there could be a possibility of maybe likin him again bc in reality hes a total sweetheart but it was way too hard getting over him..a lot of alonme time and depression and I don’t think I could go through that again. Then….theres another guy that I kinda have my eye on but I don’t know about that..I cant wait till summer seriously it is going to be off the hook me and my allstars(kimi and morgan) it will be a bombass summer…so I realized that ¾ of my weeeknd consited oif me smoking or having the munches or just plain out being baked off my BUTT! Ha it was not that exciting of a weekend but alot of realizations came to me and other people this weeknd..yah know realizations about feelings for people good and bad. But anywho im out peace ya’ll!