Backsliding
Since starting my temp job approximately three weeks ago, I have gained 4.5 pounds.
This is after maintaining a stable weight for three months.
I'm not 'upset' at myself, more disappointed. I could feel myself sliding back into bad old habits: drive through for breakfast because I'm sleepy and rushed in the morning, buying junk food chocolate the other day because I had cravings, not getting as much movement in my day because of the schedule and style of the job. . . I'm just glad it's not worse: that I *have* packed my own lunch all but two days and have been eating reasonably well there.
I haven't been to Nia for a couple of months. Time to go back tonight, even if I'm tired.
I think one of the biggest challenges of exercise is to maintain the counter-intuitive awareness that (in most circumstances) exercise like Nia will make me feel *better* when I'm finished, even if I feel tired at the beginning of the class.
Nia is perfect for this time, because it stretches out my entire body and it emphasizes pleasure, not pushing through pain. I definitely need much more stretching *and* pleasure in my life right now.
In counterpoint to the physical backsliding, I continue to make progress spiritually, despite the fact that my daily practices have been minimal most days. I keep having small but potent realizations that I think I'm doing a good job integrating and holding on to. I did do a full cycle last night, and it felt almost effortless. I'm hoping that a breakthrough I thought I experienced just before I started the temp job really was as significant as I'd hoped.
It's 5:09am. . . I need to shower and figure out what to do for breakfast before I leave at 5:30am for my 6:00am clock-punch.
This is after maintaining a stable weight for three months.
I'm not 'upset' at myself, more disappointed. I could feel myself sliding back into bad old habits: drive through for breakfast because I'm sleepy and rushed in the morning, buying junk food chocolate the other day because I had cravings, not getting as much movement in my day because of the schedule and style of the job. . . I'm just glad it's not worse: that I *have* packed my own lunch all but two days and have been eating reasonably well there.
I haven't been to Nia for a couple of months. Time to go back tonight, even if I'm tired.
I think one of the biggest challenges of exercise is to maintain the counter-intuitive awareness that (in most circumstances) exercise like Nia will make me feel *better* when I'm finished, even if I feel tired at the beginning of the class.
Nia is perfect for this time, because it stretches out my entire body and it emphasizes pleasure, not pushing through pain. I definitely need much more stretching *and* pleasure in my life right now.
In counterpoint to the physical backsliding, I continue to make progress spiritually, despite the fact that my daily practices have been minimal most days. I keep having small but potent realizations that I think I'm doing a good job integrating and holding on to. I did do a full cycle last night, and it felt almost effortless. I'm hoping that a breakthrough I thought I experienced just before I started the temp job really was as significant as I'd hoped.
It's 5:09am. . . I need to shower and figure out what to do for breakfast before I leave at 5:30am for my 6:00am clock-punch.