I'm at work and don't have time to post the details, but I made a major breakthrough last night, thanks to
uncrowned_king, Panther, and Inanna.
I feel like I've come through to the other side of a spiritual crisis that could have cost me my life -- literally.
The work isn't over, of course. I have to integrate the new perspective and then act on it. I'm still going to be looking for a therapist to help me do this work -- as well as address my grief.
But I'm in a far, far better place than I've been for the past week.
Actually, I'm in a better place than I've been for quite a while.