Sex & Spirit
Now that my psyche is pretty much back to my personal normal (YMMV) again, I'm starting to gently poke at it with a virtual stick.
The primary question is the same as it's been for the past several years: What do I want? What do I yearn for?
The answer I've been getting (and, to be honest, I was getting it before I started the meds, but now I'm able to feel it, not just think it) is I want to be deeply engaged in erotic spirituality.
Those two threads -- sex and spirit, together and separately -- have been at the core of my interests since adolescence. I was just starting to meaningfully engaged them with uncrowned_king and _storyteller_ when one died and the other left. It's time to start again, not quite from ground zero but almost. The explorations I did with them were exuberant, impulsive, instinctive. It's time to be mindful and deliberate, to cultivate it.
(Don't get me wrong. I would love to be exuberant, impulsive, and instinctive in this area again, but lacking a partner makes it more difficult.)
While pondering this, I became curious: just how important is your sexuality (expressed alone, with one or more partners, with or without an explicitly spiritual element) to your overall sense of identity, purpose, and well-being? I get the sense that my level of interest and engagement is rather more intense than most, but it's not something I've sat around and chatted with others about for a long time.
Anyone care to share? All comments will be screened and anonymous responses are okay. If you're okay with me unscreening your comment, let me know, otherwise all comments will remain screened.
The primary question is the same as it's been for the past several years: What do I want? What do I yearn for?
The answer I've been getting (and, to be honest, I was getting it before I started the meds, but now I'm able to feel it, not just think it) is I want to be deeply engaged in erotic spirituality.
Those two threads -- sex and spirit, together and separately -- have been at the core of my interests since adolescence. I was just starting to meaningfully engaged them with uncrowned_king and _storyteller_ when one died and the other left. It's time to start again, not quite from ground zero but almost. The explorations I did with them were exuberant, impulsive, instinctive. It's time to be mindful and deliberate, to cultivate it.
(Don't get me wrong. I would love to be exuberant, impulsive, and instinctive in this area again, but lacking a partner makes it more difficult.)
While pondering this, I became curious: just how important is your sexuality (expressed alone, with one or more partners, with or without an explicitly spiritual element) to your overall sense of identity, purpose, and well-being? I get the sense that my level of interest and engagement is rather more intense than most, but it's not something I've sat around and chatted with others about for a long time.
Anyone care to share? All comments will be screened and anonymous responses are okay. If you're okay with me unscreening your comment, let me know, otherwise all comments will remain screened.