Have You Ever Wondered...
what drives you to drink? I don't think people drink for the hell of it ever. People drink to get shit off their mind or out of their mind. Some people drink because of shit that happens during the day or during the week. Some people drink to get a person off of their mind. I am one of the people that drinks because there is a person that drives me to drink right now.
Situation: I am heading back home to live with my parents and work at a better paying job than what I got now. The benefits would be better and I would be able to save up a lot of money because my dad will be watching all of it. I think it is for the best. Anyway, I tell one friend and he understands and supports me for doing it. Thank you. I go and tell this other friend, a person that I think would support me in anything, and guess what, she doesn't. She doesn't some close to supporting me. If anything she does the opposite. She tells me that I am running away from my problems and I don't need to do that. Granted there are some problems there. One of which I happen to be running from, but most of the logic behind me going back home is for finacial reasons. Ever since I told her this stuff between us has been very short. We get more and more pissy at each other. I never want to lose her as a friend, but what is going on right now between us is making me drink everyday when I am at my apartment.
I have told her everything she needs to know and yet she says nothing. She gets irritated because I don't always tell her everything, but what I don't think she relizes is that she is in the same ship I am, and leaves some shit out. You can't preach something that you don't do yourself! I just want her to be in my life somehow. I would love to be friends with her, but the hard part is I would always want something more. Sacrifice is key to friendship. I guess I will have to give up feelings to be friends with her.
Situation: I am heading back home to live with my parents and work at a better paying job than what I got now. The benefits would be better and I would be able to save up a lot of money because my dad will be watching all of it. I think it is for the best. Anyway, I tell one friend and he understands and supports me for doing it. Thank you. I go and tell this other friend, a person that I think would support me in anything, and guess what, she doesn't. She doesn't some close to supporting me. If anything she does the opposite. She tells me that I am running away from my problems and I don't need to do that. Granted there are some problems there. One of which I happen to be running from, but most of the logic behind me going back home is for finacial reasons. Ever since I told her this stuff between us has been very short. We get more and more pissy at each other. I never want to lose her as a friend, but what is going on right now between us is making me drink everyday when I am at my apartment.
I have told her everything she needs to know and yet she says nothing. She gets irritated because I don't always tell her everything, but what I don't think she relizes is that she is in the same ship I am, and leaves some shit out. You can't preach something that you don't do yourself! I just want her to be in my life somehow. I would love to be friends with her, but the hard part is I would always want something more. Sacrifice is key to friendship. I guess I will have to give up feelings to be friends with her.