Bitterblue
The school year has come to a close and with it perhaps my career as a Pre-K teacher. It was a bittersweet ending to the year. I was not used to having a class of my own that I watched grow and helped along, only to have to send them on to the next grade and their next teachers at the end of the year. I'm not too big to admit it, I openly wept. What a wonderful class I had. I'll never forget them.
I kind of feel like I'm back to square one again in terms of what I'm going to do with my life. I interviewed for one of the two vacant teaching positions at Silver Creek and have mixed feelings about it. I would like to continue teaching and really enjoy working at the school. But I do have this fear of committing to something, and getting this job to me seems like it sets up an inescapable future. I think I'd enjoy a career as a teacher, I'm just not sure I'm ready to settle into it just yet. I pretty much bombed the interview, which is odd because I usually do fairly well in those situations, but I'm not sure that I'm as upset about it as I should be. I guess the silver lining is that I'll be ok with the outcome regardless of what it is. I'll just continue to take things one day at a time.
Really my only obligations right now are paying back my student loans. While they often make me regret ever going to college, having them as my only burden really isn't too bad. I'm totally undecided on what I'll be doing this summer. I'm pretty sure I'll be attending three weddings this summer. I haven't attended one since I was the ring-bearer at my Uncle's wedding when I was three. There is a big part of me that doesn't think this is a good thing. I can't picture getting married at this point in my life, but that's probably more me running behind than people getting ahead of themselves. I still can't decide if I'm closer to four or 40. This could be a great combination of being vibrant and full of life while still mature and rational...but I'm probably closer to a big baby with no life skills that is stubborn and set in his ways.
I kind of feel like I'm back to square one again in terms of what I'm going to do with my life. I interviewed for one of the two vacant teaching positions at Silver Creek and have mixed feelings about it. I would like to continue teaching and really enjoy working at the school. But I do have this fear of committing to something, and getting this job to me seems like it sets up an inescapable future. I think I'd enjoy a career as a teacher, I'm just not sure I'm ready to settle into it just yet. I pretty much bombed the interview, which is odd because I usually do fairly well in those situations, but I'm not sure that I'm as upset about it as I should be. I guess the silver lining is that I'll be ok with the outcome regardless of what it is. I'll just continue to take things one day at a time.
Really my only obligations right now are paying back my student loans. While they often make me regret ever going to college, having them as my only burden really isn't too bad. I'm totally undecided on what I'll be doing this summer. I'm pretty sure I'll be attending three weddings this summer. I haven't attended one since I was the ring-bearer at my Uncle's wedding when I was three. There is a big part of me that doesn't think this is a good thing. I can't picture getting married at this point in my life, but that's probably more me running behind than people getting ahead of themselves. I still can't decide if I'm closer to four or 40. This could be a great combination of being vibrant and full of life while still mature and rational...but I'm probably closer to a big baby with no life skills that is stubborn and set in his ways.