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Hard times not a comin'
as they are already here.
Just and inkling of self pity,
and that's what pisses me off the most.
Trying and getting nowhere used to bother me more than anything else in the world,
but now, not even knowing where to go bothers me the most.
Where is karma when I need her?
My grandfather is in the hospital. He went in there Sunday night / Monday morning. Pneumonia was the original cause for the visit. A few days later now, and they are still trying to fight off the bacteria so that he can get better. I know he is weak and tired from being 94 with Alzheimer's and so forth but I have never seen him this weak and fragile. This man is my hero and it is bothering me more than I thought it would. I just don't like it. Thursday is another day though, which means 2 more visits from Dr. Yu. She has the power to send him home all better, if only his body would cooperate. And his mind. I mentioned the Alzheimer's already, but think about it in these terms: The nurses and doctors tell him something to do or not to do and he can't remember what it is. It is difficult for him to remember what he should do. He hates being in the hospital but he likes the constant attention from the staff. I understand as I get my personable (Shut up!) nature from him. He is being honored at the end of the month as they are decommissioning the NCO Training Academy he founded and was eventually named after. (See, hero.) I did not know about this until recently and when I asked him about it his response was, "Well, since it isn't located in Texas, it didn't seem important." God bless him.
Randomly, because I have been wanting to talk about it for quite some time now, but I didn't know who to ramble at. I have fallen in love with a beautiful girl who doesn't even know i exist. It's not as bad as I make it sound but it's not the situation I would like it to be. Like anyone is ever in the dating situation they want to be in (Matt and Shawn say nothing) She makes me want to send her flowers and write her bad poetry. Seriously bad haikus and so forth. I already wrote one, but I am not strong enough to post it. I don't even have the balls to show it to her. (The poem, she's already seen the other thing) At least I did that well. Feels nice to be good at something, but I would seriously cut off my toe to have an emotional connection with someone (read: female) that lasts more than a weekend.
Well, now that I feel like a total wuss I will leave you with this final thought:
as they are already here.
Just and inkling of self pity,
and that's what pisses me off the most.
Trying and getting nowhere used to bother me more than anything else in the world,
but now, not even knowing where to go bothers me the most.
Where is karma when I need her?
My grandfather is in the hospital. He went in there Sunday night / Monday morning. Pneumonia was the original cause for the visit. A few days later now, and they are still trying to fight off the bacteria so that he can get better. I know he is weak and tired from being 94 with Alzheimer's and so forth but I have never seen him this weak and fragile. This man is my hero and it is bothering me more than I thought it would. I just don't like it. Thursday is another day though, which means 2 more visits from Dr. Yu. She has the power to send him home all better, if only his body would cooperate. And his mind. I mentioned the Alzheimer's already, but think about it in these terms: The nurses and doctors tell him something to do or not to do and he can't remember what it is. It is difficult for him to remember what he should do. He hates being in the hospital but he likes the constant attention from the staff. I understand as I get my personable (Shut up!) nature from him. He is being honored at the end of the month as they are decommissioning the NCO Training Academy he founded and was eventually named after. (See, hero.) I did not know about this until recently and when I asked him about it his response was, "Well, since it isn't located in Texas, it didn't seem important." God bless him.
Randomly, because I have been wanting to talk about it for quite some time now, but I didn't know who to ramble at. I have fallen in love with a beautiful girl who doesn't even know i exist. It's not as bad as I make it sound but it's not the situation I would like it to be. Like anyone is ever in the dating situation they want to be in (Matt and Shawn say nothing) She makes me want to send her flowers and write her bad poetry. Seriously bad haikus and so forth. I already wrote one, but I am not strong enough to post it. I don't even have the balls to show it to her. (The poem, she's already seen the other thing) At least I did that well. Feels nice to be good at something, but I would seriously cut off my toe to have an emotional connection with someone (read: female) that lasts more than a weekend.
Well, now that I feel like a total wuss I will leave you with this final thought: