Ridiculously Romantic
Name: Kelley, the long-of-wind.
We respect the LJ code. Are you over 13?: A bit, yeah.
Five positive adjectives to describe yourself: determined, thrifty, perceptive, creative, comfortable
Five negative adjectives to describe yourself: moody, lazy, stubborn, forgetful, apathetic
Your hobbies/interests: Theatre (performance, make-up design, and dialects are major concentrations of interest within the interest), reading, amateur criminal analysis (and by "amateur" I mean "I took a psychology/sociology class in high school" and by "criminal" I mean "characters in movies, usually of the horror and/or thriller genre"), fixing blatantly obvious grammatical errors, writing (poetry mostly, and I take more joy than I probably should from writing poetry based on books)
Your strengths: I'm one of the few people I know who is comfortable with her body. Do I see things I'd love to change about it? Absolutely. However, that doesn't stop me from being okay with what I see when I look in a mirror. I also don't often attempt to hide behind fake modesty. I'm not going to brag about my talents, but I'm also not going to play the "Oh, I'm not that great!" game. A simple "thank you" goes a long way, people. I'm a pretty talented performer and I have a way with the written word. I know these things to be true and I have faith in them and, therefore, faith in myself.
Your weaknesses: HOWEVER, because I have so much faith in the knowledge that I have some strong talents, I take it especially hard when I am rejected or can feel that I am not doing my best. Also, I'm the most socially awkward person in the world when I'm being myself. That is, I can fake perky and nice at work, but if you just start talking to me on the street, my initial reaction will be a blank expression and a "Why the fuck are you talking to me?" Not because I think I'm above you or anything (although I'm sure I've come off that way), but because I have no idea how to react to someone being randomly friendly.
What do people like most about you?: That I'm relatively low maintenance? I don't know.
Goals/aims for the future: Starving artist, wut. No, seriously, though. I'm a theatre major and I do plan to pursue it as a career. I have a friend in Chicago who is willing to put me up for a while after I graduate, but I'm anticipating a lot of picking up things off the street and wearing secondhand clothes until they no long resemble clothing. But I've done all of those things since before I was into theatre as a legitimate future for me, so...
Favourite quote/lyrics/phrase and why?: I don't really have a favorite. I love quoting people. The way I figure it, if someone said it more eloquently than I could hope to, why try to inadequately word a phrase? However, for the purposes of this, the line that came into my head was: "Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask and he'll tell you the truth." As for why...well, it's true, isn't it?
Favourites
Animal: Red fox
Book: Alice's Adventures in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll (followed closely by The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde)
Food: I love to try potentially disgusting things. For example: I bake when I''m stressed, and I had some leftover chocolate chips from a project. My roommate/best friend had leftover cheese pizza. I'm just saying: sprinkle some chips, reheat the pizza, om nom nom. I also can't eat just one cereal. I've taken to pre-mixing my cereal in mostly-empty boxes. Strawberry Special K is a must, something with almonds, the generic brand of Lucky Charms...maybe some broken-up toaster pastry thing. All with skim milk. Obviously. 'Cause I'm clearly all serious about my health and stuff. :|
Movies: Velvet Goldmine; Fight Club; Big Fish; Saw II
Music: Something Corporate; Jack's Mannequin; music I can dance like a fool to (even if it is generic pop. My current favorite "flail about the empty house' music is mostly TiK ToK by Kesha and Sun Goes Down by David Jordan)
This or That
Leader or Follower: Neither, really. I've changed quite a bit in the past few years (theatre has really brought out the cocky, stubborn part of me), so I'm less inclined to follow unless I really don't know what I'm doing. You don't want me as a leader, though. I'm lazy and get aggravated with people far too easily. "Lead, follow, or get out of the way": just get out of my way.
Optimistic or Pessimistic: Both. I look forward to things and hope I succeed, but I generally expect to lose. My future sort of is the embodiment of that. If I give up before it's time, I could lose a job; but expecting the best is just setting myself up for unnecessary disappointment. I'm a realist: aware of the possibility of both success and failure, and open to both.
Mature or Immature: Most of these are going to be both or neither, aren't they? I'm both. I'm twenty years old and I've had people tell me I act like I'm in my thirties: I don't like to go out partying and drinking, especially in the middle of the week, my days are filled with work, school, and theatre; I have some very specific plans for my major that I can do "nothing" with and the house I'm currently living in is leased under my name and I make sure all of the bills get paid, although two of the other people living here have at least five years on me and the third is only two days my junior. Takes a matured sort of mind to handle all of that.
However, if you're looking for a mature person who won't turn everything into sexual innuendo/respond to you with "that's what she said', doesn't take pride in knowing the dance for The Bad Touch, and prefers Tolstoy to Rowling and classical to dance remixes, you're looking at the wrong girl.
Pleasure or Sacrifice: Sacrifice. See above. I don't really want to go out drinking and partying, but even if I did want to, I work. Hopefully the sacrifice will pay off eventually and the two won't have to be mutually exclusive: sure, I'll still be too busy for social outings, but I'll be busy doing something I actually like.
Confident or Shy: Six of one, half a dozen of the other. Maybe. I don't know if it's shyness or just my lack of ability to socialize properly. I can get pretty damn cocky, though.
Selfless or Selfish: Oh, I'm selfish and I know it. I have a horrible guilt complex, though, so you'll probably get me to agree to a lot of things I don't really want to do.
Introverted or Extroverted: Introvert. Surprise.
Rule or Be Ruled: Mm. Kinky. Honestly, though, my fist of iron is made of, like, soggy cardboard. Everyone I know thinks I would be dominate in any sort of relationship, be it business or sexual (though if they think I'm in a sexual relationship, they clearly don't know me well enough to be forming these kinds of opinions about me) or whatever, but my desire to lead is so not great enough to dig up the will to do it. And, even if I did, I feel like the power would go to my head. I'm already snippy to my superiors, imagine if I WAS the superior. So, yeah, tie me up and whip me soundly, baby.
Queer as Folk
Favourite character and why?: Emmett. Y'all, let's just stop and think about this for a minute, shall we? Peter Paige originally auditioned for the part of Ted. What if he had gotten that part, you guys? How different would our lives be? I'd be selling my body on some street corner by an IHoP. Our mods would be having dance contests in parking lots using an empty buggy with a missing wheel as a trophy. The person who applied for stamping before me would be eating berries straight off the bush without using their hands. CHAOS, Y'ALL, WITHOUT THE EMMETT PETER PAIGE HAS GIVEN US. CHAOS.
No, but seriously, I get secondhand embarrassment very easily. Basically, if a character does something that can only end badly and I can feel it in my bones, I get absolutely humiliated for them and it takes me out of the story. Emmett is the only character I never had any (or much) embarrassment for. Not because he never did anything that I knew would have a negative result, but because I knew that he was going to take care of it. For example, had it been anyone else, I would have been embarrassed out of my mind when he tried to read the speech at George's funeral, but I wasn't, because it was Emmett and there is no "right path" for Emmett, just what he knows in his heart he needs to do. He was the first one I really sat up and took notice of when the characters were starting to get more well-rounded: he was sweet and catty, but he would also kick your ass. Most people, especially those who look and act as sweet as Emmett, I'd just sort of smile and think "oh, how protective", but he just sort of...I don't know. That moment with Blake will be with me for a very long time. Not even the "break your face" bit: for me, it started, ends, and revolves around "No. You love drugs. So get drugs." I just froze and was completely captivated. Like, sure there were tons of great moments before that and certainly after (I mean, this was deep into season 1), but that was just it for me. So, now that my little fangasm is over, let me go watch the series again so I can be giddy and sad and ashamed of the fact that I'm alive and a bad person thanks to Emmett.
P.S. Dear Mr. Paige: could we have gotten one little "y'all" from little (see what I did there? 'Cause I'm 5'-" and Peter is...not...) Southern-born Emmett? Maybe I just don't remember hearing, but now that I'm listening, I distinctly hear "you all" every time.
Least favourite character and why?: Dr. David. Everything about him irked me. Everything. I don't know.
ETA: Copypasta'd from a now-screened conversation in the comments: See, for me, David was everyone I tried to have a relationship with before I found out about asexuality and thought "This is me. They're talking about me." He was all of the guys and girls who wanted more, who wanted to pay for things and go out and be romantic when I didn't want any of that, and everyone who gave up just because I needed more time to adjust than they were willing to give. I realize I'm projecting a lot of my personal issues on him, and I can honestly understand the concept behind his point of view, but dislike for any character is going to be based at least lightly on biases influenced by personal experience, and he just pushed all of my buttons.
Anything else you'd like to add?:
- I'm at my most comfortable when I'm barefoot, in jeans, and wearing a sports bra (no top)
- I'm no longer allowed to proofread my younger brother's essays because I once laughed so hard that I started crying when he tried to explain his phrasing of a sentence over which I'd experienced some confusion.
- The photos I provided were taken within two or three months of each other. How much a haircut can change the outer us!
If you're teetering between two characters and need one to ask one little confirmation question just to be sure, please do so. I didn't see a rule about responding to comments like I've seen in other stamping comms, so please feel free.
Include a photo of yourself here (no more than 3!) or just describe yourself:
Please post the links to 3 (or more!) applications you have voted on:
http://community.livejournal.com/qaf_stamps/3562.html?thread=21226#t21226
http://community.livejournal.com/qaf_stamps/3142.html?thread=20550#t20550
http://community.livejournal.com/qaf_stamps/3708.html?thread=20348#t20348