How long has it been?
I don't know, but it's been a while. I guess I just have nothing else to do so I'm writing in this. Things are ok I guess. Baseball is going decent. School is alright. I made my decision on college. Work sucks as always, and I'm probably getting fired soon, so that's that. And that's pretty much my life. I don't have much of one other than that right now.
I'm finding myself getting sick of a lot of stuff I used to like. I've been getting pissed off a lot lately. It's not really the depression like usual. I mean that still happens once in a while, but I've been finding myself getting so pissed off I have to like take Nyquil or drink to get to sleep so I don't think about it. I don't really know what it is, so if I'm an asshole to you or something I guess I apologize ahead of time, even though at the time I will think you deserve it. Fuck some people is all I can say right now. I think they know who they are. And if not, well then...fuck them. They don't deserve to know. I'm kinda getting pissed off just thinking about all of this. One of the shitty parts too is that it stays pretty constant. Usually things always seem worse at night, and then when the morning comes, it seems like it wasn't a big deal at all and you are almost completely over it. Nope. I wake up in the same state of mind I was in when I went to bed, sometimes even worse. I dread waking up. I'm just thankful I get to sleep in the next two days, that way I don't have some bullshit waking me up at like 8 every morning like what's happened all week so far. Oh yeah, this has been the all time fucking worst vacation ever. I don't even want to call this a fucking vacation, because I have more shit to deal with now than I do going to school. People just continue to do stupid shit that makes me want to fucking punch them.
I leave for Virginia Beach on Wednesday. I don't even know what the fuck to expect on this trip. I don't even know if I'm excited about going. The two days I have to be in school before I leave are going to be spent taking my fucking math final. Fuck Calculus and fuck anyone who takes it too. I'd say I feel bad for the people taking it, but fuck them. I take it too, I'll feel bad for my fucking self because I'm the worst student in the class. I'm fucking bullshit right now and I don't want to sit here and type anymore, so fuck you.
I'm finding myself getting sick of a lot of stuff I used to like. I've been getting pissed off a lot lately. It's not really the depression like usual. I mean that still happens once in a while, but I've been finding myself getting so pissed off I have to like take Nyquil or drink to get to sleep so I don't think about it. I don't really know what it is, so if I'm an asshole to you or something I guess I apologize ahead of time, even though at the time I will think you deserve it. Fuck some people is all I can say right now. I think they know who they are. And if not, well then...fuck them. They don't deserve to know. I'm kinda getting pissed off just thinking about all of this. One of the shitty parts too is that it stays pretty constant. Usually things always seem worse at night, and then when the morning comes, it seems like it wasn't a big deal at all and you are almost completely over it. Nope. I wake up in the same state of mind I was in when I went to bed, sometimes even worse. I dread waking up. I'm just thankful I get to sleep in the next two days, that way I don't have some bullshit waking me up at like 8 every morning like what's happened all week so far. Oh yeah, this has been the all time fucking worst vacation ever. I don't even want to call this a fucking vacation, because I have more shit to deal with now than I do going to school. People just continue to do stupid shit that makes me want to fucking punch them.
I leave for Virginia Beach on Wednesday. I don't even know what the fuck to expect on this trip. I don't even know if I'm excited about going. The two days I have to be in school before I leave are going to be spent taking my fucking math final. Fuck Calculus and fuck anyone who takes it too. I'd say I feel bad for the people taking it, but fuck them. I take it too, I'll feel bad for my fucking self because I'm the worst student in the class. I'm fucking bullshit right now and I don't want to sit here and type anymore, so fuck you.