For the record
I have returned to El Paso...
Currently I am trying to finish my semester at UTEP
I didn't want to do this, but it was my choice
I was actually finding a niche there in Colorado
I had a cool roommate, steady friends who laughed at my jokes and i could count on for company
I was taking more than a full load, Honors classes and snowboarding
I was rockclimbing in the gym staying in shape
I complained, but who doesn't
I came home, to make a long story short...
to help out my family
So i made the choice, but when i have to stand there and tell people
"I came back"
the last thing i want them to think is that i couldnt hack it
didnt like it
didnt survive
i did what i could and im doing now what i feel i have to do
i want to crawl in a hole i dont even want to see anyone back home
24 hours ago i was reading a Sociology book and doing my Statistics homework, in a day i dropped out of school packed up my apartment, and drove 12 hours home, on a prayer that i would not waste an entire semester because of this, i havent slept in almost 3 days now, i havent even had the time, at least i showered and ate, my stomach hates me from the overkill of redbull and coffee
but family comes first, for the record
i dont like any of you, for the record
i left for a reason you know
and finally when i smiled
my life's vicious cycle of leaving and returning kicked in
Im still going to san antonio in the fall, this doesnt change that...
only that i wont get in the honors program at UTEP and well, that will change alot
so there
my dreams came true and shortly after my worst nightmare
i became something i hate "someone who came back"
this is for the record
so dont smile at me, dont ask me to hang out, and dont expect it now that im here, i didnt come for you, hell i didnt even come for me
Currently I am trying to finish my semester at UTEP
I didn't want to do this, but it was my choice
I was actually finding a niche there in Colorado
I had a cool roommate, steady friends who laughed at my jokes and i could count on for company
I was taking more than a full load, Honors classes and snowboarding
I was rockclimbing in the gym staying in shape
I complained, but who doesn't
I came home, to make a long story short...
to help out my family
So i made the choice, but when i have to stand there and tell people
"I came back"
the last thing i want them to think is that i couldnt hack it
didnt like it
didnt survive
i did what i could and im doing now what i feel i have to do
i want to crawl in a hole i dont even want to see anyone back home
24 hours ago i was reading a Sociology book and doing my Statistics homework, in a day i dropped out of school packed up my apartment, and drove 12 hours home, on a prayer that i would not waste an entire semester because of this, i havent slept in almost 3 days now, i havent even had the time, at least i showered and ate, my stomach hates me from the overkill of redbull and coffee
but family comes first, for the record
i dont like any of you, for the record
i left for a reason you know
and finally when i smiled
my life's vicious cycle of leaving and returning kicked in
Im still going to san antonio in the fall, this doesnt change that...
only that i wont get in the honors program at UTEP and well, that will change alot
so there
my dreams came true and shortly after my worst nightmare
i became something i hate "someone who came back"
this is for the record
so dont smile at me, dont ask me to hang out, and dont expect it now that im here, i didnt come for you, hell i didnt even come for me