PLEASE READ. Really important entry for me. :)
Being that yesterday was such a big day for me, I did A LOT of
thinking. I made it through this past year AND through yesterday. Wow,
I really can do this, can't I? It's done. It's time to stop letting it
eat at me, to stop blaming myself, and to stop letting him have such an
effect on my life. No more. I AM strong and it's NOT my fault. I did
nothing wrong. With yesterday being over, I feel like this HUGE burden
has been lifted.
As I lay in bed last night, I had some things on my mind and I realized something pretty big for me. I have been changing so much these last 5 or 6 months. I'm not the same person I was in January, or even in March. I'm actually happy with the person that I'm becoming and with where I'm headed in life. I've come so far and tackled so much this year, but I haven't let it win. I'm just tired of being so angry and of being so sad. That's not the person that I want to be or that I want people to see me as. Therefore, that's NOT what anyone is going to see because that's NOT who I am. I am such a lucky person to have everything that I have. My family is amazing, I have the best friends that anyone could ask for, I have so many opportunities and advantages, I like my job, and all around, I have things really good. And not only am I starting to be comfortable in my body, but I'm starting to actually LIKE it.
I'M HAPPY. I'M HAPPY WITH MYSELF. I'M HAPPY WITH MY LIFE. I'M HAPPY WITH WHO I AM.
In other news...Classes are almost over. Love it. Maybe I'll actually have a best friend again? Strange concept. haha. Stephanie, Laura, and Chris (maybe??) will be home soon!! I can't wait!! I'm going to kidnap Torri & Taby so that they can't leave. New Bedford is too far away. They can live in Sue's room! :) Dan is going to be around all summer to be a WSC R.A. WOW!! How fun!! Craig will be home in a few weeks!! I'm so excited!! Dad is going to Florida May 18th-May 27th, which means I have the house to myself. AMAZING. I think that's it. Have a good day, everyone! I know this was a bit long, so thanks for reading it!! :)
Final Note: Thank you. You pointed some things out to me, so I did a lot of thinking before bed last night and realized a lot. You know who you are...
As I lay in bed last night, I had some things on my mind and I realized something pretty big for me. I have been changing so much these last 5 or 6 months. I'm not the same person I was in January, or even in March. I'm actually happy with the person that I'm becoming and with where I'm headed in life. I've come so far and tackled so much this year, but I haven't let it win. I'm just tired of being so angry and of being so sad. That's not the person that I want to be or that I want people to see me as. Therefore, that's NOT what anyone is going to see because that's NOT who I am. I am such a lucky person to have everything that I have. My family is amazing, I have the best friends that anyone could ask for, I have so many opportunities and advantages, I like my job, and all around, I have things really good. And not only am I starting to be comfortable in my body, but I'm starting to actually LIKE it.
I'M HAPPY. I'M HAPPY WITH MYSELF. I'M HAPPY WITH MY LIFE. I'M HAPPY WITH WHO I AM.
In other news...Classes are almost over. Love it. Maybe I'll actually have a best friend again? Strange concept. haha. Stephanie, Laura, and Chris (maybe??) will be home soon!! I can't wait!! I'm going to kidnap Torri & Taby so that they can't leave. New Bedford is too far away. They can live in Sue's room! :) Dan is going to be around all summer to be a WSC R.A. WOW!! How fun!! Craig will be home in a few weeks!! I'm so excited!! Dad is going to Florida May 18th-May 27th, which means I have the house to myself. AMAZING. I think that's it. Have a good day, everyone! I know this was a bit long, so thanks for reading it!! :)
Final Note: Thank you. You pointed some things out to me, so I did a lot of thinking before bed last night and realized a lot. You know who you are...