hmm dunno what to vent
heh. finally got a job, and at dex. with mike celic somewhat. it rocks. good pay, lots of overtime. hopefully i'll be out of debt within several months.
jen keeps sending mixed signals. wants some things with me, but doesnt wanna hangout ever. and if i do get her to hang out... its not for long. always something better to do. someone better to do. who knows. sometimes i let my mind wander on that particular subject. but it sucks, because now, i have to acknowledge that she is having sex with other people. weird shit. she keeps on saying that she loves me. and some things show that. she gives me rides from work. and we go get coffee on occasion. but ultimately theres alot more things that are more important. some things should be. like school and work. others shouldnt.
she assumes too much and leaves too much to be desired.
I rearranged my room a bit. and i saw shoshanna at coffee bean. im going to call her.
just called her and she's gonna come over and smoke with me. cigarettes i think. so yeh. lots of work, and a little bit of sleep is what my life consists of. glimpses of jen and no hope for anything. except getting on with my life. but what choice do any of us have. we're all getting on with our lives whether we like it or not.
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jen keeps sending mixed signals. wants some things with me, but doesnt wanna hangout ever. and if i do get her to hang out... its not for long. always something better to do. someone better to do. who knows. sometimes i let my mind wander on that particular subject. but it sucks, because now, i have to acknowledge that she is having sex with other people. weird shit. she keeps on saying that she loves me. and some things show that. she gives me rides from work. and we go get coffee on occasion. but ultimately theres alot more things that are more important. some things should be. like school and work. others shouldnt.
she assumes too much and leaves too much to be desired.
I rearranged my room a bit. and i saw shoshanna at coffee bean. im going to call her.
just called her and she's gonna come over and smoke with me. cigarettes i think. so yeh. lots of work, and a little bit of sleep is what my life consists of. glimpses of jen and no hope for anything. except getting on with my life. but what choice do any of us have. we're all getting on with our lives whether we like it or not.
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