Even more soap opera. Grab your handkerchief....
Yesterday was a very enjoyable day. I woke up around 11 and went with Wendy to DI so she could look for some shoes and I for a belt. My belt search was fruitless, but she bought two pairs of shoes. I did find some other treasures, though, like scriptures in Portuguese for 3 bucks (brand new shape!) and some other stuff. We ate Carl's Jr (Hardee's) for lunch (my breakfast). She then had homework to do, so I dropped her off at her apartment.
Then Camila and I had one last drama session. I was surprised by the fact that there were no tears shed (a pleasant surprise). She just recounted some of our fondest memories and what she liked most about me. She showed me some things I gave her, just simple things, that she had actually kept and saved. I mean, they were just random things, like this card I gave her when she was sick, part of this package of granola bars I got for her one time, flower petals, etc. She once again expressed her feelings and stuff, as I said, too late once again. There was one last thing that she said she had to give me before we parted ways. It was...interesting, something that I would have killed for four weeks ago. Why did she have to give me that yesterday instead? It kind of left me shocked, but I almost suspected it by the way she was saying things leading up to it. So, we have officially ended whtaever thing there was between us, or what there could have been between us. Honestly, though, it did go out with a bang.
I have to think that there is something better waiting for me. This is the second time (in a row, actually) that something like this has happened, in which I finally get what I want, but it's all too late. That person did not act in time when they had their chance. Ana could have at least told me that she had the ticket to come back to the US. She could have told me a little earlier that she wanted to get married this year after moving to Salt Lake (which of course didn't end up happening). The things she told me when I talked with her to break up....if she had told me them just a month earlier, around Thanksgiving let's say, I would have been the happiest guy on the planet. I would be engaged right now to tell the truth. Nevertheless, things didn't seem to be going anywhere, and I had gotten interested in someone else. That someone else was Camila. Things were amazing between us. Our relationship was even better than the one I had with Ana, and that was pretty good. Things couldn't stay at just a friendship level; we both knew that. However, when the time came for her to decide what she wanted, she shirked and chickened out. I say it boldly because it's what happened. Then, after she said 'no,' I went out and found someone else. Granted, it was a little faster than I expected, but I found someone else. THEN, after realizing what she had basically lost, Camila came to know exactly what she felt. When she revealed it, it was too late. If she had said all of this and done that thing she did yesterday just FOUR WEEKS ago, I would have been the happiest guy ever, and she would be my girlfriend, but noooo. I can't really complain because things are excellent with me and Wendy. We drove up to Salt Lake last night to see the Joseph Smith movie and then went to Krispie Kreme afterwards (picture on FB). Anyway, we have continued having fun and getting to know each other more. I just wonder why these things happen how they happen, WHEN they happen, or when they DON'T happen, rather. I can only conclude that something better is awaiting me. I don't know what/who that is, I don't know when/where it is, but it's there. Two times in a row is not a coincidence.
I know it sounds like a placed a lot of blame on both of them. In a way it is true. I know that I could be accused of calling the kettle black, but honestly, the ball was in their court in a way, and they dropped it. I don't wait around to pick up the ball again.
Yesterday, most of the snow had melted. I was pretty happy and somewhat surprised, as was everyone else here. However, today it snowed like crazy. There are at least a few inches covering everything and it started again a couple hours ago. Dangit. I love the snow when I don't have to worry about getting called in to work to clean it all up. It'll be rough. There's nothing to melt the snow right now. The calcium is all depleted, and the sun is not out. The ground is frozen. Grrr, oh well.
Then Camila and I had one last drama session. I was surprised by the fact that there were no tears shed (a pleasant surprise). She just recounted some of our fondest memories and what she liked most about me. She showed me some things I gave her, just simple things, that she had actually kept and saved. I mean, they were just random things, like this card I gave her when she was sick, part of this package of granola bars I got for her one time, flower petals, etc. She once again expressed her feelings and stuff, as I said, too late once again. There was one last thing that she said she had to give me before we parted ways. It was...interesting, something that I would have killed for four weeks ago. Why did she have to give me that yesterday instead? It kind of left me shocked, but I almost suspected it by the way she was saying things leading up to it. So, we have officially ended whtaever thing there was between us, or what there could have been between us. Honestly, though, it did go out with a bang.
I have to think that there is something better waiting for me. This is the second time (in a row, actually) that something like this has happened, in which I finally get what I want, but it's all too late. That person did not act in time when they had their chance. Ana could have at least told me that she had the ticket to come back to the US. She could have told me a little earlier that she wanted to get married this year after moving to Salt Lake (which of course didn't end up happening). The things she told me when I talked with her to break up....if she had told me them just a month earlier, around Thanksgiving let's say, I would have been the happiest guy on the planet. I would be engaged right now to tell the truth. Nevertheless, things didn't seem to be going anywhere, and I had gotten interested in someone else. That someone else was Camila. Things were amazing between us. Our relationship was even better than the one I had with Ana, and that was pretty good. Things couldn't stay at just a friendship level; we both knew that. However, when the time came for her to decide what she wanted, she shirked and chickened out. I say it boldly because it's what happened. Then, after she said 'no,' I went out and found someone else. Granted, it was a little faster than I expected, but I found someone else. THEN, after realizing what she had basically lost, Camila came to know exactly what she felt. When she revealed it, it was too late. If she had said all of this and done that thing she did yesterday just FOUR WEEKS ago, I would have been the happiest guy ever, and she would be my girlfriend, but noooo. I can't really complain because things are excellent with me and Wendy. We drove up to Salt Lake last night to see the Joseph Smith movie and then went to Krispie Kreme afterwards (picture on FB). Anyway, we have continued having fun and getting to know each other more. I just wonder why these things happen how they happen, WHEN they happen, or when they DON'T happen, rather. I can only conclude that something better is awaiting me. I don't know what/who that is, I don't know when/where it is, but it's there. Two times in a row is not a coincidence.
I know it sounds like a placed a lot of blame on both of them. In a way it is true. I know that I could be accused of calling the kettle black, but honestly, the ball was in their court in a way, and they dropped it. I don't wait around to pick up the ball again.
Yesterday, most of the snow had melted. I was pretty happy and somewhat surprised, as was everyone else here. However, today it snowed like crazy. There are at least a few inches covering everything and it started again a couple hours ago. Dangit. I love the snow when I don't have to worry about getting called in to work to clean it all up. It'll be rough. There's nothing to melt the snow right now. The calcium is all depleted, and the sun is not out. The ground is frozen. Grrr, oh well.