the 4th straight day of rain
i went to the east side of campus today to eat and got soaked. rain's supposed to be good for flowers and trees and grass but i think it's drowning them. all the tulips in the garden have no petals. it looks ugly and sad. i leave boston in 2 days and this is how nature says goodbye. go figure east coast.
i have all these plans for the summer to keep myself busy. i feel vapid. like the things i do have no meaning or consequence whatsoever. i know i have to work in order to pay my rent so i suppose thats my first priority. but i'd like to volunteer somewhere. maybe at a food bank? or at a women's shelter? or at the animal rescue league! that'd be great. even though all i would do is clean cages all day. but still. those kittens have had upper respiratory virus for months now. and maybe i can find one to take home. i want to put my book together finally and go to the gym and find a way to feel good about myself. i'd like to spend as much time as i can with justin and amber and jessica and danielle. just being with them makes me happy and as much as i complain about certain things sometimes, home is with them. and matt. but he's preoccupied currently.
justin came to boston for a little visit yesterday. it was really fun. we went to piccolo venezia and bova's for dessert. he got a look at our apartment. then i went to dinner with amber jess and danielle for everyone's birthdays. i got super nice gifts-- dinner, a gap giftcard, and a gift certificate to help pay for my next tattoo. now i can afford it!
matts still being bad at long distance. sometimes i cant help but look at people like adam and alyssa or nick and katy drinkwater- even danny nilsen and lauren and be jealous. theyre completely wrapped up in each other. nick and katy are living together! danny and lauren work together and i wouldnt be surprised at all if they moved in together soon. and then there's me and matt. although i guess its a good thing we're not like that, most couples that are that attached end up crashing and burning. but still, sometimes when im in boston and hes at home i feel like the whole thing is very one sided. maybe im too sensitive right now. i think ill get over it.
i suppose thats all for now.
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Telephone Booth Number 507 by Pedro Pietri
I will jump out the window
if thats what it taes
to satisfy you sexually,
but only if you live in the basement.
i have all these plans for the summer to keep myself busy. i feel vapid. like the things i do have no meaning or consequence whatsoever. i know i have to work in order to pay my rent so i suppose thats my first priority. but i'd like to volunteer somewhere. maybe at a food bank? or at a women's shelter? or at the animal rescue league! that'd be great. even though all i would do is clean cages all day. but still. those kittens have had upper respiratory virus for months now. and maybe i can find one to take home. i want to put my book together finally and go to the gym and find a way to feel good about myself. i'd like to spend as much time as i can with justin and amber and jessica and danielle. just being with them makes me happy and as much as i complain about certain things sometimes, home is with them. and matt. but he's preoccupied currently.
justin came to boston for a little visit yesterday. it was really fun. we went to piccolo venezia and bova's for dessert. he got a look at our apartment. then i went to dinner with amber jess and danielle for everyone's birthdays. i got super nice gifts-- dinner, a gap giftcard, and a gift certificate to help pay for my next tattoo. now i can afford it!
matts still being bad at long distance. sometimes i cant help but look at people like adam and alyssa or nick and katy drinkwater- even danny nilsen and lauren and be jealous. theyre completely wrapped up in each other. nick and katy are living together! danny and lauren work together and i wouldnt be surprised at all if they moved in together soon. and then there's me and matt. although i guess its a good thing we're not like that, most couples that are that attached end up crashing and burning. but still, sometimes when im in boston and hes at home i feel like the whole thing is very one sided. maybe im too sensitive right now. i think ill get over it.
i suppose thats all for now.
late
Telephone Booth Number 507 by Pedro Pietri
I will jump out the window
if thats what it taes
to satisfy you sexually,
but only if you live in the basement.