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just a few more months, and i'd have been gone a year. funny how things backfire. been jumping around a bit -- made a wordpress and a tumblr and a whatever else is out there, but i can never stay anywhere too long. i get restless on the internet. i found myself kind of missing this place. was wondering how some of you were doing and ended up reading back a few months, checking to see who's still alive and who's disappeared, like me --
i sort of fell into this whole KEEP REVISING AND NEVER POST ANYTHING thing, with all the important things being shoved into another email draft or another random text file or just lost somewhere in my head -- not even because they're things i don't want to share (actually, there are some things i probably need to share more than anything else), but because it'd take too long to explain the context and if i try to get started i fall back into revising and revising because no matter how i say it it'll never make sense.
SO I KNOW I PROMISED OVER A YEAR AGO THAT I'D WRITE ABOUT GENDER SOME DAY. i probably will, eventually, but it won't come with any explanations. which is okay, i guess. it's more for myself to put something out there than anything. having something out in the public sphere just feels more liberating, even if i know nobody's reading it, i guess? i haven't given out the address of my wordpress or tumblr at all, haha. but at the same time, i feel an obligation to make anything i post to the public understandable to any random stranger who stumbles by. i know i don't need to, but i think that urge has been holding me back and just
screw that
it'll take me some time to build up the habit again and i'm not going to promise myself anything but
i'm going to try and make this place like my email drafts and fill it with all the random mindpoop i poop out because i poop a whole lot ARE YOU READY FOR THIS
i sort of fell into this whole KEEP REVISING AND NEVER POST ANYTHING thing, with all the important things being shoved into another email draft or another random text file or just lost somewhere in my head -- not even because they're things i don't want to share (actually, there are some things i probably need to share more than anything else), but because it'd take too long to explain the context and if i try to get started i fall back into revising and revising because no matter how i say it it'll never make sense.
SO I KNOW I PROMISED OVER A YEAR AGO THAT I'D WRITE ABOUT GENDER SOME DAY. i probably will, eventually, but it won't come with any explanations. which is okay, i guess. it's more for myself to put something out there than anything. having something out in the public sphere just feels more liberating, even if i know nobody's reading it, i guess? i haven't given out the address of my wordpress or tumblr at all, haha. but at the same time, i feel an obligation to make anything i post to the public understandable to any random stranger who stumbles by. i know i don't need to, but i think that urge has been holding me back and just
screw that
it'll take me some time to build up the habit again and i'm not going to promise myself anything but
i'm going to try and make this place like my email drafts and fill it with all the random mindpoop i poop out because i poop a whole lot ARE YOU READY FOR THIS