in the life of the wounded, healers are hard to find....
but i think i found mine. thank the gods.
i thought i'd done something stupid last night. gods i was kicking myself so hard over it. i brought up something he'd said on the phone. he didn't know he'd said it, and he was freaking out that i'd leave him for it. as if! but yeah, we had a long discussion of it via yahoo, and then a little more on the phone today. i think we've figured out a game plan for it now. tho it will be hard to not slip and say those three words that could make or break the whole relationship. everything is riding on a reaction to three little words. no pressure or anything.
otherwise, its all good between us. we're crazy about each other, and worried as fuck that a face-to-face will blow it all to hell. he wants to steal me away from here, and i wanna be stolen. he wants to treat me right. i wanna treat him better. we're both having feelings of having found "the one" and not wanting to fuck it up. i'm so scared to screw this up. i don't want to. i want to keep him.
its to the point where my day is shit till a hear his voice on the phone or see his face on the webcam. i dream of him at night, and daydream about him when i ought to be concentrating on other things. its...wierd. i don't get this attatched this fast usually. but with tommy, i'm so very very attatched to him. gods i can't wait to meet him!
i thought i'd done something stupid last night. gods i was kicking myself so hard over it. i brought up something he'd said on the phone. he didn't know he'd said it, and he was freaking out that i'd leave him for it. as if! but yeah, we had a long discussion of it via yahoo, and then a little more on the phone today. i think we've figured out a game plan for it now. tho it will be hard to not slip and say those three words that could make or break the whole relationship. everything is riding on a reaction to three little words. no pressure or anything.
otherwise, its all good between us. we're crazy about each other, and worried as fuck that a face-to-face will blow it all to hell. he wants to steal me away from here, and i wanna be stolen. he wants to treat me right. i wanna treat him better. we're both having feelings of having found "the one" and not wanting to fuck it up. i'm so scared to screw this up. i don't want to. i want to keep him.
its to the point where my day is shit till a hear his voice on the phone or see his face on the webcam. i dream of him at night, and daydream about him when i ought to be concentrating on other things. its...wierd. i don't get this attatched this fast usually. but with tommy, i'm so very very attatched to him. gods i can't wait to meet him!