its decided then....
after a long, drawn-out mental beating/discussion i had with myself this past week, its been decided that i will become dead inside. really dead inside, not just pretending so that i don't hurt the ones i don't want to hurt. from now on, i have no emotions. i don't want them. emotions get me into too much fucking trouble. and i just can't feel my heart break again. so i'm just dead. but i'ma pretend i feel things, just for the sake of others. why? because i am a selfless little bitch who really, deep down, cares nothing for herself.
just to let you great folks know, those of you that i've told i love you, i meant it. and those of you i didn't tell, i meant to, eventually. but now i'm dead inside, so i don't feel that anymore. but i'll continue to act it....
and i won't remember any of this when i wake up later this morning. except for the decision to be dead.
just to let you great folks know, those of you that i've told i love you, i meant it. and those of you i didn't tell, i meant to, eventually. but now i'm dead inside, so i don't feel that anymore. but i'll continue to act it....
and i won't remember any of this when i wake up later this morning. except for the decision to be dead.