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ahhhh LJ, at last. lol
i finally feel the need to update t his shizzle.
mmmmkay well COC..k is alright. today was stressful though O__o but im usually not stressed out like crazy.
im taking Watercolour, on mon and wed at 11-2. its my favorite class. then i have Drawing I (not as great as i thought it'd be..well its got its ups and downs), English 091 (college reading and writing, oooh funnn. XD) and Alg II. which is pretty much review to me, most of it at least. learned a few more things but yeah. i htink im doin pretty okay in the class so far. i have a high B in thar, and i havent been doing all my homework lately O__o eh. but i'll catch up this next two chapters. so thats coo i guess.
in my drawing I class i finally conquered my fear of Pen and Ink. lol. its those special quil pens? whatever?" yeah those. i was deathly affraid of them but now i did a leaf in pen and ink and i totally mastered it. bwahahahaha. =)
anywho. so i've been sick the past few days. sunday morning i had stomach problems, so i didnt go to church. and yesterday i came down with this horrid flu where iwas coughing, sneezing, had huge headaches/migraines, etc. it got to the point where i felt like i was going to throw up. so by then i was like "oookay im going to stop trying to finish this art portfolio stuff and go to bed....im not about to let myself vomit in the name of getting useless art exercises done." but then it took me till 5:30 am to actually sleep soundly. my head was throbbing so bad and i kept sneezing or coughing all night. blegh. that was seriously, one of my all-time lows. had a shitty day, felt totally shitty, i felt like some people werent being the friends i had hoped they were, and i was being a total emo child. and whenever i'd start to cry, the headache would get worse. and i just wanted to talk to someone, to let all my frustrations out. so i try calling sean. buuut my stupid cell didnt have enough service, but at the time i thought he was just not picking up. so that made me even more emo. then after i woke up at 5 to go downstairs and take a drink and just kinda walk around to calm myself a bit, i texted him telling him how shitty i felt, and after that, even though he didnt text me back, i passed out. XD i think once i got it all out, i could relax. odd, right? ooh what an eventful night ;DD
so then i wake up at 9, still felt pretty bad, just no headache. so i try and finish those damned art exercises, and only got half of them done by class time O__o and i was planning on just going in, turning in my portfolio and then leaving. but no. she called each person up one at a time to discuss with them about their portfolio. and see, i still felt shitty and groggy and like my head was somewhere else. buuuut i did get a fuckin B+++ ;D she's like "how do you think you would grade your portfolio?" im like "ehh. i'd say B+? O__o" she's like "right on the money =) just what i was thinking, next time just clean it up a bit, spend more time on some of these projects and it'll be an A" im like "cooooo"
so yeah. totally pwnt that. lol
so my cold's gotten better today though. as the day wore on, it hasnt been quite as evil to me. but colds always get worse at night for me O__o so we'll see what happens thar.
so latellllyyyy. i've gotten all weird and emotional and totally switched some stuff up. XD ok. soooo. i dont think i ever wrote in here about how i liked kevin. as in..mexikevin. he lives in anahiem (hour away) and long ago, i had thought we connected and such. so i developed a crush on him. he figured it out and i told him. and he said nothing would change from it. and at the time it didnt seem so. we hung out a lot (pretty much me wasting lots and lots and lots of money and gas to hang with him for a day or two) he met karen, christiane, peter, shaun, etc. (at different times of course) and yet i never met any of his friends....oooooddddddd? i think so. but i didnt push it. and as time wore on, he started to not talk to me as much, not call anymore, and it got to the point where i thought he was trying to avoid hanging out anymore.. O___o one time i had to beg him because i had to leave the house and no one was available (i mean i probably coulda found someone, but i had planned this shizzle out weeks before, and the night before he canceled).
but you know what the weird thing was? he had the excuse that his mom wanted to spend the whole day with him and such, then half an hour later he was talking about how he might call his friend to hang out. im like "oooooookayyyy, that doesnt fit your fuckin alabi dumbass" if he hadnt said anytthing like that, i woulda trusted him and not begged, buuuuut thats what he said so i knew he was lying. y es i wanted to still hang out with him XDDD. bleh. so dumb. but the day turned out really well. i had a buncha fun, iunno if he did O__o
alright, so anywho. me and christiane and her man were going to disneyland. so i was going to invite a friend to come with so i wouldnt be a third wheel and all that fun stuff. so i invited kevin. (we planned this months in advance, and he said he'd go). THEN, litterally the NIGHT BEFORE, kevin says "my uncle had a heartattack. i cant go" im like "ok..but he's fine....soooo its going to take up the whole day to stay with him to know he's okay?" like..i understood that thats a big thing. but his uncle was alright. and even if he just went for a few hours, ya know..that'd be fine. then his excuse was that he needed to spend the day with his cousin. im lik e"riiiiiiight" iunno. i really didnt trust him. and i still dont. i think he was bull shitting. how annoying. so anyways, i tried to find someone to go with (preferrably a guy because..iunno, i deal better with guys?) but no one could do it last minute. so from then on (about a month or two ago) kevin's been quite the ass to me and i just dont trust him anymore. soooooo teh crush has been smaaaashed to bits. but whatever. fuck him. who needs assholes like that? i was guessing he didnt wanna go to disneyland cause he'd think it'd be a date. which he coulda just TOLD ME. because it really wasnt. i mean fuck. i slept over at his house in his bed with him when he knew i liked him. and he didnt have a problem with it. he wasnt even suppose to sleep in the bed with me buuut he did. so i dont see how disneyland could be worse than sleeping in the bed together O____o. i mostly just needed someone there to distract me from a making out christiane and kent. blegh. what a rfiend kevin is. fuck him.
ok. so. the funny thing is, there's another kevin i used to talk to alot. talked about him on here while ago too. XD so. i totally hated him for about a year. senior year to be exact. then during the summer we started talking again. i didnt trust him much cause he can get quite manipulative and shit. so i was gunna be distant and friendly but that was it. well so yeah he's awesome. we've been talking a lot the past month. funny how i finish with one kevin and then another one just kinda pops up to be tehre for me? XD. wooord. but i ahvent gotten too close to him or anything. just befriended him and kinda been like a pal or whtaever. and im really close with his BFF sean. now sean is fuckin awesome. that child makes me laugh XD. and he's a good friend too <333 its weird cause i've known kevin for about... 5 or 6 years? and i've known sean for...4? maybe less. and im more comfortable talking to sean and joking with him than i am with kevin. weird yes? iunno. i've been off and on with kevin, but fo eva i've been good with sean. so i guess im just really cautious with kevin now. so yeah. boys XD. oh boys.
MKAY. so. uhm. yeah...... is that it? shiiit. i think it is.
oh oh wait i got one more thing.
ok so kevin the one im talking to now, he finally talks to me after 3 days of nothing (which was odd cause we talked pretty much every day for the past two months now) so he finally comes online and is like "you're going to hate me but i found this girl i like and blah blahblah i cant see her i am sad i have been drunk for 3 days straight and im going to come clean now so its going to suck" im like "cool? O__o" and i dont u nderstand why he thinks i'dbe mad for him finding someone he likes? iunno it was just odd to me. so i asked him that and he didnt say anything and signed off XD. im like "whatever....let him do what he wants.." lol
anywhoooom. kkkkkkkkkk i think thats it. fo sho.
if you read all of this, which i DOUBT so much that it hurts (since no one reads this shit) then..kudos to you. <33333
i finally feel the need to update t his shizzle.
mmmmkay well COC..k is alright. today was stressful though O__o but im usually not stressed out like crazy.
im taking Watercolour, on mon and wed at 11-2. its my favorite class. then i have Drawing I (not as great as i thought it'd be..well its got its ups and downs), English 091 (college reading and writing, oooh funnn. XD) and Alg II. which is pretty much review to me, most of it at least. learned a few more things but yeah. i htink im doin pretty okay in the class so far. i have a high B in thar, and i havent been doing all my homework lately O__o eh. but i'll catch up this next two chapters. so thats coo i guess.
in my drawing I class i finally conquered my fear of Pen and Ink. lol. its those special quil pens? whatever?" yeah those. i was deathly affraid of them but now i did a leaf in pen and ink and i totally mastered it. bwahahahaha. =)
anywho. so i've been sick the past few days. sunday morning i had stomach problems, so i didnt go to church. and yesterday i came down with this horrid flu where iwas coughing, sneezing, had huge headaches/migraines, etc. it got to the point where i felt like i was going to throw up. so by then i was like "oookay im going to stop trying to finish this art portfolio stuff and go to bed....im not about to let myself vomit in the name of getting useless art exercises done." but then it took me till 5:30 am to actually sleep soundly. my head was throbbing so bad and i kept sneezing or coughing all night. blegh. that was seriously, one of my all-time lows. had a shitty day, felt totally shitty, i felt like some people werent being the friends i had hoped they were, and i was being a total emo child. and whenever i'd start to cry, the headache would get worse. and i just wanted to talk to someone, to let all my frustrations out. so i try calling sean. buuut my stupid cell didnt have enough service, but at the time i thought he was just not picking up. so that made me even more emo. then after i woke up at 5 to go downstairs and take a drink and just kinda walk around to calm myself a bit, i texted him telling him how shitty i felt, and after that, even though he didnt text me back, i passed out. XD i think once i got it all out, i could relax. odd, right? ooh what an eventful night ;DD
so then i wake up at 9, still felt pretty bad, just no headache. so i try and finish those damned art exercises, and only got half of them done by class time O__o and i was planning on just going in, turning in my portfolio and then leaving. but no. she called each person up one at a time to discuss with them about their portfolio. and see, i still felt shitty and groggy and like my head was somewhere else. buuuut i did get a fuckin B+++ ;D she's like "how do you think you would grade your portfolio?" im like "ehh. i'd say B+? O__o" she's like "right on the money =) just what i was thinking, next time just clean it up a bit, spend more time on some of these projects and it'll be an A" im like "cooooo"
so yeah. totally pwnt that. lol
so my cold's gotten better today though. as the day wore on, it hasnt been quite as evil to me. but colds always get worse at night for me O__o so we'll see what happens thar.
so latellllyyyy. i've gotten all weird and emotional and totally switched some stuff up. XD ok. soooo. i dont think i ever wrote in here about how i liked kevin. as in..mexikevin. he lives in anahiem (hour away) and long ago, i had thought we connected and such. so i developed a crush on him. he figured it out and i told him. and he said nothing would change from it. and at the time it didnt seem so. we hung out a lot (pretty much me wasting lots and lots and lots of money and gas to hang with him for a day or two) he met karen, christiane, peter, shaun, etc. (at different times of course) and yet i never met any of his friends....oooooddddddd? i think so. but i didnt push it. and as time wore on, he started to not talk to me as much, not call anymore, and it got to the point where i thought he was trying to avoid hanging out anymore.. O___o one time i had to beg him because i had to leave the house and no one was available (i mean i probably coulda found someone, but i had planned this shizzle out weeks before, and the night before he canceled).
but you know what the weird thing was? he had the excuse that his mom wanted to spend the whole day with him and such, then half an hour later he was talking about how he might call his friend to hang out. im like "oooooookayyyy, that doesnt fit your fuckin alabi dumbass" if he hadnt said anytthing like that, i woulda trusted him and not begged, buuuuut thats what he said so i knew he was lying. y es i wanted to still hang out with him XDDD. bleh. so dumb. but the day turned out really well. i had a buncha fun, iunno if he did O__o
alright, so anywho. me and christiane and her man were going to disneyland. so i was going to invite a friend to come with so i wouldnt be a third wheel and all that fun stuff. so i invited kevin. (we planned this months in advance, and he said he'd go). THEN, litterally the NIGHT BEFORE, kevin says "my uncle had a heartattack. i cant go" im like "ok..but he's fine....soooo its going to take up the whole day to stay with him to know he's okay?" like..i understood that thats a big thing. but his uncle was alright. and even if he just went for a few hours, ya know..that'd be fine. then his excuse was that he needed to spend the day with his cousin. im lik e"riiiiiiight" iunno. i really didnt trust him. and i still dont. i think he was bull shitting. how annoying. so anyways, i tried to find someone to go with (preferrably a guy because..iunno, i deal better with guys?) but no one could do it last minute. so from then on (about a month or two ago) kevin's been quite the ass to me and i just dont trust him anymore. soooooo teh crush has been smaaaashed to bits. but whatever. fuck him. who needs assholes like that? i was guessing he didnt wanna go to disneyland cause he'd think it'd be a date. which he coulda just TOLD ME. because it really wasnt. i mean fuck. i slept over at his house in his bed with him when he knew i liked him. and he didnt have a problem with it. he wasnt even suppose to sleep in the bed with me buuut he did. so i dont see how disneyland could be worse than sleeping in the bed together O____o. i mostly just needed someone there to distract me from a making out christiane and kent. blegh. what a rfiend kevin is. fuck him.
ok. so. the funny thing is, there's another kevin i used to talk to alot. talked about him on here while ago too. XD so. i totally hated him for about a year. senior year to be exact. then during the summer we started talking again. i didnt trust him much cause he can get quite manipulative and shit. so i was gunna be distant and friendly but that was it. well so yeah he's awesome. we've been talking a lot the past month. funny how i finish with one kevin and then another one just kinda pops up to be tehre for me? XD. wooord. but i ahvent gotten too close to him or anything. just befriended him and kinda been like a pal or whtaever. and im really close with his BFF sean. now sean is fuckin awesome. that child makes me laugh XD. and he's a good friend too <333 its weird cause i've known kevin for about... 5 or 6 years? and i've known sean for...4? maybe less. and im more comfortable talking to sean and joking with him than i am with kevin. weird yes? iunno. i've been off and on with kevin, but fo eva i've been good with sean. so i guess im just really cautious with kevin now. so yeah. boys XD. oh boys.
MKAY. so. uhm. yeah...... is that it? shiiit. i think it is.
oh oh wait i got one more thing.
ok so kevin the one im talking to now, he finally talks to me after 3 days of nothing (which was odd cause we talked pretty much every day for the past two months now) so he finally comes online and is like "you're going to hate me but i found this girl i like and blah blahblah i cant see her i am sad i have been drunk for 3 days straight and im going to come clean now so its going to suck" im like "cool? O__o" and i dont u nderstand why he thinks i'dbe mad for him finding someone he likes? iunno it was just odd to me. so i asked him that and he didnt say anything and signed off XD. im like "whatever....let him do what he wants.." lol
anywhoooom. kkkkkkkkkk i think thats it. fo sho.
if you read all of this, which i DOUBT so much that it hurts (since no one reads this shit) then..kudos to you. <33333