May 31, 2006 22:11
It has been a while...
I'm pondering this evening, thinking about relationship, friends/boys/family. Thinking about the things that really matter in these and the things that can't be put up with.
There have been far too many "mango’s" (for those of you who don't know Tessa, a mango is a person who pretends to care about you even love you just to leave you feeling completely violated and used.. which you have been).
I have come up with the two main factors in any good relationship, which are TRUST and RESPECT. In the past I have trusted but not been respected.. You could say I'm naive I guess, but I have learned, I have (through many accumulated mistakes) learned that people can change really fast and first impressions mean little. Sometimes they're real, sometimes people ARE who they seem but too many times for me they haven’t been.
Mostly I need to get peoples respect before I have made a judgement about their character. Before I know if they are a friend to me or if they aren't worth my time. Well i guess I'll work on it.. I dunno how I'll do though, I'm naturally trusting and accepting.. That should be enough to have someone respect geez, why are people so complicated!!
Well I'm just going in circles.. Mostly I'm thinking about all the darn circumstances in which I've trusted people to soon and if they had any respect for me.. AT ALL.. They wouldn't have treated me the way they did... Anyhow that is in the past and I can't dwell on it.
<3 Love Trust Respect <3