Good Day, Bad Day.
Wow, I've been real busy this month or at least seem to be. XD It has been a month since I last wrote something. I've always been meaning to blog but got lazy since a lot was happening. Though it's really not as exciting as it should be, I just want to rant.
Academics:
Let's just say I think I'm on the "down" side of it lately. I'm not doing as well as I used to. Some people say I've become too unsatisfied with myself and feel like life is too tedious. I really hope this slump doesn't get to me. Worry and anxiety is crawling all over my spine since I did make a lot of mistakes. Surgery and medical practice takes a lot out of you even if your patience don't make sense. (animals) Also I've been getting a lot of negative feed-back on how we are being thought. I don't want to be specific because I don't really believe in it all that much and that success still lies in your heart. Let's just say other people are saying "our training and teaching isn't as well as it should be". I don't know. I just want to become a good vet. I don't think what I'm doing is enough. I gotta push harder. But hopelessness can really be a downer. Will my will and passion alone for this profession persevere? I hope I can find inspiration and answer. I will post my surgery progress soon as I organize our pictures.
We also did farm visit today on cattle farming. It was nice but there are tons of report to finish. Man I really feel overwhelmed. @_@ I feel I could rant and worry forever but that's not really going to help me. Will it?
Non-academics:
It's been quite a lazy week compared to others because of foundation week. There were little classes and the food was overflowing as usual. Now not only do I have to study hard but I gotta exercise more too. The opening of the year sure posses a lot of hard work to be done!
Love/Art life:
I also have a lot of projects in hiatus since my life has been filled with vet work and sleeping and eating. I hope to finish them soon. Cosplay plans have also been postponed a lot even though I've quite prepared for it. It seems that everything is in rocky waters. I'm just very thankful I smoothed things out with lover. Without him I'm a wreck! God I hope everything else turns better. I feel I'm on shaky ground career-wise.
Ok I know my writing is random and all-over-the-place. But that's what I feel now in all aspect of my life. I just want more focus and motivation. I won't give up. I wanna feel lucky...
Academics:
Let's just say I think I'm on the "down" side of it lately. I'm not doing as well as I used to. Some people say I've become too unsatisfied with myself and feel like life is too tedious. I really hope this slump doesn't get to me. Worry and anxiety is crawling all over my spine since I did make a lot of mistakes. Surgery and medical practice takes a lot out of you even if your patience don't make sense. (animals) Also I've been getting a lot of negative feed-back on how we are being thought. I don't want to be specific because I don't really believe in it all that much and that success still lies in your heart. Let's just say other people are saying "our training and teaching isn't as well as it should be". I don't know. I just want to become a good vet. I don't think what I'm doing is enough. I gotta push harder. But hopelessness can really be a downer. Will my will and passion alone for this profession persevere? I hope I can find inspiration and answer. I will post my surgery progress soon as I organize our pictures.
We also did farm visit today on cattle farming. It was nice but there are tons of report to finish. Man I really feel overwhelmed. @_@ I feel I could rant and worry forever but that's not really going to help me. Will it?
Non-academics:
It's been quite a lazy week compared to others because of foundation week. There were little classes and the food was overflowing as usual. Now not only do I have to study hard but I gotta exercise more too. The opening of the year sure posses a lot of hard work to be done!
Love/Art life:
I also have a lot of projects in hiatus since my life has been filled with vet work and sleeping and eating. I hope to finish them soon. Cosplay plans have also been postponed a lot even though I've quite prepared for it. It seems that everything is in rocky waters. I'm just very thankful I smoothed things out with lover. Without him I'm a wreck! God I hope everything else turns better. I feel I'm on shaky ground career-wise.
Ok I know my writing is random and all-over-the-place. But that's what I feel now in all aspect of my life. I just want more focus and motivation. I won't give up. I wanna feel lucky...