when does my life begin?

[pyroimpulse]

so, all my life i've been worried about other people. i mean... that's what you're supposed to do, right? take care of those around you... put others before yourself and happiness will come to you?

i don't fucking think so.

i am so tired of working to achieve the goals of others... what do i want for my life? should i not be my most important person? i understand caring for others and valuing their company/life/whatever... but where do i put myself first? where do i give a fuck what i do?

... and how do you explain that to others? i'm sorry... i love myself too much - i can't do this anymore.