This is the end?
I come downstairs this morning to find the computer shut down and the ethernet cable ubpluged from my DSL gateway to my computer. I just wanted to check my e-mail. The first thought in my head, and the one that has been there all day, is what did they find? What are they going to do. I believe that they took the internet away is because it is one of the things making me gay... according to them. So now not having the internet is going to make me stratight? How the hell does that work? I know that my DSL gateway connects via the USB port also so it is okay and I can still sneek on the internet when they aren't home, but yeah. I don't know what is going to happen tonight, I don't want to know. I am prepared for the worst. I don't think that I can make up anymore lies to them. I've just got to tell them. I have no choice. They are going to have to know sometime. The only reason I don't tell them that I'm gay is that I have the huge fear of them rejecting and not loving me as their son. So I've tried to sugar coat it, make it seem that eveything is all right, when it isn't. I do it because of them. I want my parents to be happy. I love them with my whole heart and nothing can change that. I just don't know anymore. I have a lot more that I want to say but I've lot all the will to type. Sorry. Maybe I'll post later to see how it goes, or maybe not. Depending if I am still living here tonight.
Jeremy
Jeremy