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so im kinda depressed today i guess because my mom has been talking about not wanting to be with my dad anymore once again so its kinda got me down because i miss how things were befor last november and now i know that its never going to be the same again if my dad keeps drinking and at this rate its not going to stop..... then stuff has been happening with my two friends like i dont want to say because i dont know who all reads this and the hole world doesnt have to know....anyways.... i talked to my one friend today and we got it all worked out but he was telling me one thing and my other friend was tellin me another so its like whos lieing here im going to believe my best friend of course but i would still like to know whats going on because these two are supposed to be my best friends but one of them is lieing to me i dont really want to start shit but people know that i do like to know the hole story and not be lied to....so yea im pretty down....but there is some good news i talked to david today about that kid i have been wanting and he said that he would see what goes on and see what he can do and then his name is branden something or other i cant remember and david brought him over to where we were sitting today and i was drawing these crosses on my arm and i was really nervouse so i didnt look up i felt like a major bitch when cindy told me he said hi i was like wow i just fucked all that up because now he probably thinks im a snotty bitch but i did tell david so if he does ask david will god davids awsome well im going to go its time to spend time with panda and mom