chilled day
so today i mainly sat around my house then cindy called and i got pissed off because she said that marcia and bill lied to the service people so yea i did the dishes to let some steam off then mom called and she told me that they were all goin to mc donalds so i got ready and went with them we had to go to a few places then we took jay and sara to mc donalds and jay played in the play place cindy played with him i was like there is no way im goin cause im terrified of them things i would get lost in them as a kid and then start to freak out cause i felt like i couldnt breath hence the reason why i am closterfobic. so im thinkin about not goin to that concert this sunday because i am closterfobic and josh is talkin about a lot of people going and im sorry but the token is not a big place for a lot of people so yea ill start freakin out and going outside all the time so i will miss most of the show so i dont see the point of going because i will ruin it for cindy u know and i dont like to do that even though i am kinda ruining it for her now im sorry and josh dont even bitch at me about it man because im not gonna say shit about but im not going ok so yea sorry if that was kinda mean im trying to me a lot more nice cause i was informed that i was not being my self at all for a couple of weeks mainly because i have not been sleeping good at all so yea but hey im gonna go <<<>>>>>>>>