Alcohol, is the only thing that will make it better.
I want to be fat.
So ive decided i want to be huge. Not just like a little bit over weight. I want to be large and not in charge. I want to be so large that girls will look at me in disgust at the bar. Yep thats right then at least ill get to see their faces. I mean i get nothin now. So i figure if i weight like 300 pounds. I will turn heads. I mean i dont get shit now. Its like im a ghost. I dont understand. I mean i honestly dont think im ugly, but its like im not there. I know i dont try hard enough, but i mean. You would think that i could catch one eyeing me, but i never get anything at all. I really dont understand. So i figure if i am giant, ill at least know why i never get any real looks. Other than ones of digust.
Actually, in all honestly. Women are disgusting users of men anyways. I mean christ you have us all wrapped around your fingers pretty much. Its really sad, but very true. I mean its to the point now, where id honestly just rather stay home with no cell phone or internet. I dont even want contact with the outside world. I'm tired of being "the great friend". Sure thats great and all dont get me wrong, but it does hurt. I know you dont think it does. Just think of it this way. Everytime you say that to me or anyone else. Well i guess i cant speak for everyone, but it makes me feel...second best....or just not good enough. I know i should and i preach to people that they shouldnt feel that way. But its the truth, it kills me, cause i know how i am. Its like man i could be so happy with her, but im not good enough to be more than a friend. Wow i mean if thats not a confidence killer i dont know what is. So i think im just going to start not doing anything but sit in my room. I know that sounds like a cry for pity. Its really not, its just fed up with not being someones only one.
So ive decided i want to be huge. Not just like a little bit over weight. I want to be large and not in charge. I want to be so large that girls will look at me in disgust at the bar. Yep thats right then at least ill get to see their faces. I mean i get nothin now. So i figure if i weight like 300 pounds. I will turn heads. I mean i dont get shit now. Its like im a ghost. I dont understand. I mean i honestly dont think im ugly, but its like im not there. I know i dont try hard enough, but i mean. You would think that i could catch one eyeing me, but i never get anything at all. I really dont understand. So i figure if i am giant, ill at least know why i never get any real looks. Other than ones of digust.
Actually, in all honestly. Women are disgusting users of men anyways. I mean christ you have us all wrapped around your fingers pretty much. Its really sad, but very true. I mean its to the point now, where id honestly just rather stay home with no cell phone or internet. I dont even want contact with the outside world. I'm tired of being "the great friend". Sure thats great and all dont get me wrong, but it does hurt. I know you dont think it does. Just think of it this way. Everytime you say that to me or anyone else. Well i guess i cant speak for everyone, but it makes me feel...second best....or just not good enough. I know i should and i preach to people that they shouldnt feel that way. But its the truth, it kills me, cause i know how i am. Its like man i could be so happy with her, but im not good enough to be more than a friend. Wow i mean if thats not a confidence killer i dont know what is. So i think im just going to start not doing anything but sit in my room. I know that sounds like a cry for pity. Its really not, its just fed up with not being someones only one.