Age
What is age? Age could be defined in so many ways; mental age, physical age, emotional age, oh, hell...
The worst age-related memory of my childhood is not being old enough to do anything -- I couldn't see over the counter at the bank because I wasn't old enough, I couldn't go out past midnight because I wasn't old enough, I couldn't drink because I wasn't old enough ... etc.
So I get to college in '92, right? Now all those things I wasn't old enough to do are simple: drinking, banking, girlfriends, bars, fraternities, sleeping too late; in fact, they are trivial. So they're no big deal now. I can do what I want, when I want.
So I fail out, spend five years in the carpentry trade, and --BAM-- here I am back in the school I love, back in the same classes I took and failed 6 years ago, with the same professors who told me i would never amount to anything, the friends who knew me as worthless and unreliable. And I am proving them all wrong; to have judged the book by its cover, before the cover even REMOTELY made any sense to them.
The difference: I am in classes with a whole different breed of people, those who are in love with the act of learning, those who cannot stand to see anything less than an 'A' in the end; it appears to me only now that those people were in my classes 7 years ago, but I did not choose to seek them out, to associate with the right people.
Would I swap my current friends for my age? Never.
Are my friends now the most treasured ever? Definately.
Can I wish I was closer in age to them? Every minute of every day.
In my life experience, should I let it be and live life the way it is because it will work out much better for both of us in the long run? Unquestionably: yes.
Unconditionally, one must learn through one's own ways. Be those ways obscure, convoluted, or nonsensical, I will learn something from every single situation I am faced with. In this situation, I wish I could change the parameters of age, but, alas, I cannot.
The solution: Let life take its course... my life is defined in all ways by myself... Nothing is outside of my control in my life, and I choose to do the right thing for everyone involved, much as it may not be the apparent ideal.
Define friend.
I have friends now that give new meaning to the word, friends who would have my back anywhere. Friends who are closer than ever.
So we have discussed the bad side of age... what's the upside?
Well, I have tons of experience in life, I am scared by almost nothing, I enjoy the finer things in life, I say 'I' too much. Hmmm... I don't like the music quite so loud, I wish that ...
I have to get to bed
More later.
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The worst age-related memory of my childhood is not being old enough to do anything -- I couldn't see over the counter at the bank because I wasn't old enough, I couldn't go out past midnight because I wasn't old enough, I couldn't drink because I wasn't old enough ... etc.
So I get to college in '92, right? Now all those things I wasn't old enough to do are simple: drinking, banking, girlfriends, bars, fraternities, sleeping too late; in fact, they are trivial. So they're no big deal now. I can do what I want, when I want.
So I fail out, spend five years in the carpentry trade, and --BAM-- here I am back in the school I love, back in the same classes I took and failed 6 years ago, with the same professors who told me i would never amount to anything, the friends who knew me as worthless and unreliable. And I am proving them all wrong; to have judged the book by its cover, before the cover even REMOTELY made any sense to them.
The difference: I am in classes with a whole different breed of people, those who are in love with the act of learning, those who cannot stand to see anything less than an 'A' in the end; it appears to me only now that those people were in my classes 7 years ago, but I did not choose to seek them out, to associate with the right people.
Would I swap my current friends for my age? Never.
Are my friends now the most treasured ever? Definately.
Can I wish I was closer in age to them? Every minute of every day.
In my life experience, should I let it be and live life the way it is because it will work out much better for both of us in the long run? Unquestionably: yes.
Unconditionally, one must learn through one's own ways. Be those ways obscure, convoluted, or nonsensical, I will learn something from every single situation I am faced with. In this situation, I wish I could change the parameters of age, but, alas, I cannot.
The solution: Let life take its course... my life is defined in all ways by myself... Nothing is outside of my control in my life, and I choose to do the right thing for everyone involved, much as it may not be the apparent ideal.
Define friend.
I have friends now that give new meaning to the word, friends who would have my back anywhere. Friends who are closer than ever.
So we have discussed the bad side of age... what's the upside?
Well, I have tons of experience in life, I am scared by almost nothing, I enjoy the finer things in life, I say 'I' too much. Hmmm... I don't like the music quite so loud, I wish that ...
I have to get to bed
More later.
.