Sep 13, 2007 13:08
It has been sometime since I last updated. I truely don't realize how much people use this and how often I check to see what my friends say. In contrast, my friends never get to see what I have to say. I find today is a good day to write being that is Rosh Hashana, the new year. On the new year I take time to think about what has been and whats going to happen. To be brief, my junior year was a big plus/minus. At serveral points I really hated life, but then other points I was elated and loving life. Looking back on times, I see the year was overall positive, hard, but alot of great things were accomplished and alot of great things happened, in our school and outside of school. It's weird that part of high school is over. It's weird how time truely does fly. It's weird how each part of life seems to be a blurr and as I get older I cherish the cruelty of how fast time really is.
Now I'm a senior. And as cliche as I sound talking about it. It is eerie. Where has high school gone? Where have my friends gone?! To college obviously. Now thats on my plate too. I have a bunch of things in mind, but nothing really set in stone. Really being a senior is a unique feeling. I'm beginning to understand the nostalgia that comes with it, and the other feeling that says "time to move on". Reflecting on each year of high school and how I started, I really see how much I've changed as a person. Erickson was right about self-identity. At the start you really have no idea who you are. I mean I'm not at the complete understanding to who I am, but at least I'm much more comfortable as a person and all the bullshit that comes along with been a teenager has kind of subsided. My brother, now in middle school is now starting that process, all the best to him. Not only have I gained a fair amount of knowledge, but I've learned a bit of life. Almost a little introduction, I can say for the little I know, I've seen a few things. Obviously not everything, but I've seen a few things in my day. I sound like an old man.
Being the oldest in high school west is a new thing. At first I hated it. I was so uncomfortable with high school but I think the two small weeks I've been at school, I've adjusted. Just like everyone, people in college, people at work, we all adjust. It's scary at first and very awkward but we learn to get used to things.
Another note, this summer was great. It was just fantastic. Period. The end. Although I worked alot, and the work I did was very interesting and a good learning experience, the best was hanging out with the people I love and they all know who they are. I think the abrupt summer ending was hard, and It really hit me hard when I came back from vacation. I hope to see all my friends that left soon though and I can only wish we all stay close as we can while they are away.
So bring on senior year. Bring on applications. Bring on the traditions. The homecomings, the plays, the work, the apathy (hopefully not too much), the new friends, the old friends, the shows, the concerts, the bands, the first of the lasts and all that jazz. I'm truely ready for it. I can only hope our class will have a good last year and a safe last year.
I wish everyone a good year and happiness. I wish you weren't bored to death by this entry but it was nice to get things out. Lets just hope it doesn't take me a year to update again. Till the next...
-Mike