it started by the rumor you started. the *cough cough* bitch *cough cough* *cough cough* slut *cough cough*
i dont remember EVER doing that to you. so like. when lisa told me i did that [[I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE TELL ME WHAT IVE DONE]] i didnt understand.
so. whatever. people have been like OMG A FIGHT. but its not. i just dont think i can be your or trinhs friend. thats it. its not a fight. its not about sides or winning. i just dont think that its going to.. work.
someone told me this summer that i need to seperate myself from people who hurt me. and i guess thats what im doing now. only you took the first step.
best friends. thats a word i use a lot. that doesnt mean they really are. in my heart it takes a lot to be my best friend. and you always complain about how many i have.. yea i have a lot i guess. but i really have like three or four. no not anymore. two or three.
im glad you clicked with trinh. it didnt mean you had to ditch me.
and you changed your last entry. how fake can you get.
its not like i want this. but. maybe its best.
and its not like i hate you. were just not. i dont know. friends. at least for now.
i dont think you want to be forever.
congrats on you and trinh. you must be really happy. youre really happy
--sydney
ps. ive heard all the rumors of the things youve said about me. so dont lie that you havent said anything. i would expect you to. even if i didnt hear rumors, id know that you were. but what i said to you is a little more than what ive said to other people. no lie.
soo thats what u mean by everyone starts rumors about u. ya.. i think it may be in ur head.
truthfully *i really could care less if u believe me* the the only thing ive told ANYONE is that u may or may not have called me a bitch. and i dont expect apologies. ok. so.. whatever. i totally ditched u. i mean, i moved away from where i sit at lunch so that i could avoid u. whatever. u know what. ur saying i told everyone?!! sure.. thats why u stood areound trying to get attention and told samantha, lissette, eric, eg, and nir "the whole story" and every time any of them asked if i wanted to know what u said about me, i said no thanks, its not really my business if she doenst tell me. there. ur the one who talks trash. trying to be the victim. im not waiting around for u to "forgive me".
i love u. so much. and i want u to know even if u hate me forever that i will always need, love, care about, cherish, and think about u. so... i guess thats all i can say.
then why do we figt. why is this happening. all i know is what i get from other people. all i want. is what happend saturday. in your eyes. in your mind. from your heart. not for other people to read. for me only. please email it to me. make it word for word if you can.
the *cough cough* bitch *cough cough* *cough cough* slut *cough cough*
i dont remember EVER doing that to you. so like. when lisa told me i did that [[I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE TELL ME WHAT IVE DONE]] i didnt understand.
so. whatever. people have been like OMG A FIGHT.
but its not.
i just dont think i can be your or trinhs friend.
thats it. its not a fight. its not about sides or winning.
i just dont think that its going to.. work.
someone told me this summer that i need to seperate myself from people who hurt me.
and i guess thats what im doing now.
only you took the first step.
best friends.
thats a word i use a lot.
that doesnt mean they really are.
in my heart it takes a lot to be my best friend.
and you always complain about how many i have.. yea i have a lot i guess.
but i really have like three or four. no not anymore. two or three.
im glad you clicked with trinh.
it didnt mean you had to ditch me.
and you changed your last entry.
how fake can you get.
its not like i want this.
but. maybe its best.
and its not like i hate you.
were just not. i dont know. friends.
at least for now.
i dont think you want to be forever.
congrats on you and trinh.
you must be really happy.
youre really happy
--sydney
ps. ive heard all the rumors of the things youve said about me.
so dont lie that you havent said anything. i would expect you to.
even if i didnt hear rumors, id know that you were. but what i said
to you is a little more than what ive said to other people. no lie.
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soo thats what u mean by
everyone starts rumors about u.
ya.. i think it may be in ur head.
truthfully *i really could care less if u believe me* the
the only thing ive told ANYONE is that u may or may not have
called me a bitch. and i dont expect apologies. ok. so..
whatever. i totally ditched u. i mean, i moved away from where
i sit at lunch so that i could avoid u. whatever. u know what. ur
saying i told everyone?!! sure.. thats why u stood areound trying to
get attention and told samantha, lissette, eric, eg, and nir "the
whole story" and every time any of them asked if i wanted to know
what u said about me, i said no thanks, its not really my business
if she doenst tell me. there. ur the one who talks trash. trying
to be the victim. im not waiting around for u to "forgive me".
jennifer
and please dont take my halloween idea. thanks.
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life without sydney = not worth it.
i love u. so much. and i want u to know even if u hate me forever that i will always need, love, care about, cherish, and think about u. so... i guess thats all i can say.
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why is this happening.
all i know is what i get from other people.
all i want.
is what happend saturday. in your eyes. in your mind.
from your heart. not for other people to read.
for me only.
please email it to me.
make it word for word if you can.
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but i understand your response.
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but right now i feel like shit.
so im going to sleep. if im not going to school tomorrow
ill call u and give u my pe locker combo.
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