It's Not About Forcing Happiness... It's About Not Letting Sadness Win
Last night I took Russ up to my overlook on Mt. Lemmon. We watched the sunset, then got high and looked at stars for a few hours. My guard must really have been down because I told him about L... and I've never told anyone that part. I never really thought too much about it or thought about it as rape until recently. Definitely never talked about it. Is it rape if you don't choose it but also don't get upset about it? I wasn't upset at the time. I was confused. I don't know. I feel stupid for bringing it up. I feel like it was my fault it happened. I am too open and too trusting. I shouldn't trust anyone.