FIC: Unplugged
Title: Unplugged
Fandom: Yu-Gi-Oh
For:
30_friends
Theme: 17) Jealousy
Characters: Seto and Mokuba Kaiba
Rating: Safe
Jealousy is something Mokuba Kaiba never wants to admit to having. He doesn’t like the way the knife slides in whenever Seto is occupied and he knows its ridiculous, really ridiculous, but he just can’t help himself sometimes.
But he knows Seto is jealous too, and probably more justly so. Seto’s emotions have always been like an ocean, the depths of which Mokuba felt he was unlikely to ever discover. But Seto is more obvious, maybe not to them, but Mokuba can see through him; he knows that when his brother retires early to bed that something is wrong. Or when Seto is sitting tightly in front of the television; that he’s not taking in the pictures on the screen, he’s thinking, something is eating away at his mind.
Seto’s jealousy is over people, over the friends Mokuba hopes to make, over the life he has placed before his little brother and Mokuba is both pleased and saddened at the same time.
Mokuba is a little different and he won’t talk about it; he understands he’s being unreasonable but still can’t dispel the anxiety. He’s unnerved by the way Seto reacts to people in general; he’s tight and secretive, viewing all as a potential rival, never giving anything away and in turn it becomes a vicious cycle; without giving them anything to hold to they lose interest in communicating. Mokuba has watched this cycle over and over and its only now that he’s old enough to truly see it for what it is does he worry; it’s defensive, Seto isn’t truly like that.
He watches his brother turn people away with a scowl and a quip and he’ll press tight against Seto’s leg as if to remind him that not everyone is so bad, not everyone is like their stepfather.
He’s terrified of the day when Seto will brush him aside as just another person, just another inconvenience in his world of codes and matrixes. He wonders if this time is inevitable or not, he wonders if it’ll be age, or something he says that will make Seto turn away from him.
He can see Seto becoming more mechanical, more unlike the young boy he knew who looked after him with such possessiveness. His movements becoming tight and Mokuba would even use the word robotic, if he wasn’t so afraid of it.
Mokuba’s jealousy could be see as irrational, everyone knows Seto adores and cherishes his brother, but no-one sees what Mokuba does, no-one knows the man who holds him when he has nightmares, who will drop everything to run to his aid, no-one sees how scared Mokuba is over losing that.
He blames the machines. There is nothing else to blame; it’s like his brother has become so involved with his computers, his designs that the very world could be one giant game to him, like Seto himself is the very hero everyone wants destroyed, like he’s fighting single handed and trying to save his sanity from the world of dangerous emotions.
Mokuba is terrified that one day his brother won’t see him at all; that some program will have replaced his purpose within his brother’s life and he’ll be all alone; just like Seto thinks himself to be.
But one thing Mokuba has learnt from Seto is how to turn the tables to your advantage, how knowing your enemy can bring you victory on a much grander scale, no matter how huge the task.
Most of all, Mokuba hopes that Seto doesn’t work out why once every month, the Kaiba mansion is plunged into utter darkness without so much as a single damaged fuse.
And if he does work it out, Mokuba can only hope that he won’t care.
Fandom: Yu-Gi-Oh
For:
30_friends
Theme: 17) Jealousy
Characters: Seto and Mokuba Kaiba
Rating: Safe
Jealousy is something Mokuba Kaiba never wants to admit to having. He doesn’t like the way the knife slides in whenever Seto is occupied and he knows its ridiculous, really ridiculous, but he just can’t help himself sometimes.
But he knows Seto is jealous too, and probably more justly so. Seto’s emotions have always been like an ocean, the depths of which Mokuba felt he was unlikely to ever discover. But Seto is more obvious, maybe not to them, but Mokuba can see through him; he knows that when his brother retires early to bed that something is wrong. Or when Seto is sitting tightly in front of the television; that he’s not taking in the pictures on the screen, he’s thinking, something is eating away at his mind.
Seto’s jealousy is over people, over the friends Mokuba hopes to make, over the life he has placed before his little brother and Mokuba is both pleased and saddened at the same time.
Mokuba is a little different and he won’t talk about it; he understands he’s being unreasonable but still can’t dispel the anxiety. He’s unnerved by the way Seto reacts to people in general; he’s tight and secretive, viewing all as a potential rival, never giving anything away and in turn it becomes a vicious cycle; without giving them anything to hold to they lose interest in communicating. Mokuba has watched this cycle over and over and its only now that he’s old enough to truly see it for what it is does he worry; it’s defensive, Seto isn’t truly like that.
He watches his brother turn people away with a scowl and a quip and he’ll press tight against Seto’s leg as if to remind him that not everyone is so bad, not everyone is like their stepfather.
He’s terrified of the day when Seto will brush him aside as just another person, just another inconvenience in his world of codes and matrixes. He wonders if this time is inevitable or not, he wonders if it’ll be age, or something he says that will make Seto turn away from him.
He can see Seto becoming more mechanical, more unlike the young boy he knew who looked after him with such possessiveness. His movements becoming tight and Mokuba would even use the word robotic, if he wasn’t so afraid of it.
Mokuba’s jealousy could be see as irrational, everyone knows Seto adores and cherishes his brother, but no-one sees what Mokuba does, no-one knows the man who holds him when he has nightmares, who will drop everything to run to his aid, no-one sees how scared Mokuba is over losing that.
He blames the machines. There is nothing else to blame; it’s like his brother has become so involved with his computers, his designs that the very world could be one giant game to him, like Seto himself is the very hero everyone wants destroyed, like he’s fighting single handed and trying to save his sanity from the world of dangerous emotions.
Mokuba is terrified that one day his brother won’t see him at all; that some program will have replaced his purpose within his brother’s life and he’ll be all alone; just like Seto thinks himself to be.
But one thing Mokuba has learnt from Seto is how to turn the tables to your advantage, how knowing your enemy can bring you victory on a much grander scale, no matter how huge the task.
Most of all, Mokuba hopes that Seto doesn’t work out why once every month, the Kaiba mansion is plunged into utter darkness without so much as a single damaged fuse.
And if he does work it out, Mokuba can only hope that he won’t care.