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What in hell is wrong with me? I've been feeling so sluggish, worse than usual, plus so... incredibly stupid and incapable of intelligent thought or inspiration of any sort. I'm extremely unhappy with pretty much everything around me, from work to my home to my friends. I don't want to go out on the weekend, which is something that is very strange for me. I don't even want to make contact with actual people, so I've either been putting off following-through with an engagement to ignoring them entirely. To see The Grudge, which was actually a movie I did want to check out, I had to be practically dragged out of my home. Every time I RP, I can't even be happy with a single damn fucking pose and have to edit things like crazy before posting a completed log. I'm hitting road-blocks with my characters over the stupidest things... Tonks and Remus chatter in the Three Broomsticks and then WHAM, I don't know what the fuck to type anymore. Setting up Draco on ineffablegame should be something that I find to be terribly easy, yet it is now so horrifically hard that I can't seem to do it. My levels of motivation have also hit an all-time low where getting out of bed is something I don't even feel like bothering with anymore. Halloween's coming up, the best damn day of the year, and I can't seem to bother myself with finishing my costume. I've been considering quitting Liberi Bellum entire to free up the characters so I don't just sit on them and such, but apparently the threat is to buy Harry a plane ticket and send him after me if I do. ...This... isn't right at all. This isn't me or what I'm normally like... Could it be a dietary imbalance? Some sort of OTHER imbalance? I just can't seem to figure it out. Am I stressed? Do I need a break? I really don't feel all that stressed. Maybe I'm not getting enough sleep. Has ANYONE experienced something similar to this? I really need some advice... I don't like feeling like this. It bothers me to a great degree.