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so i've barely fuckin slept the past week. this whole financial aid fiasco has really put me in a state of panic, partially thanks to mommy dearest. i'd feel less bad about everything and deal with it better if she didn't freak out over everything and tell me that i'm gonna live w/ her till i'm 30. i wrote a 2 page letter to my school's financial aid office in an attempt to appeal my case, havent heard back from em yet. i've just been panicky and full of anxiety about the whole situation. insomnia's closing in full force. a lot on my mind. late nights gathered around the turntable listening to lou reed and neil young at their saddest. watching six feet under episodes. reading murakami.
i got paid on friday a mere $266. paid off my bills. broke by monday. i have a job interview at media wave tomorrow at 3. i hope i get it. they want people full time and i think i'd be ideal for the position. chat-n-chew is dying a slow death, so i dont even get too much solace in tips anymore. i've been putting $$$ away which makes me feel pretty good, but i'm also behind on a few bills.
my writing's been messy lately. just scattered ideas. i kinda like it better than just writing whole songs in one sitting, cuz you can piece em together and get everything you wanna say down. helping out robin at a show in fairfield this past saturday made my muse reemerge afer being absent for a while.
i got paid on friday a mere $266. paid off my bills. broke by monday. i have a job interview at media wave tomorrow at 3. i hope i get it. they want people full time and i think i'd be ideal for the position. chat-n-chew is dying a slow death, so i dont even get too much solace in tips anymore. i've been putting $$$ away which makes me feel pretty good, but i'm also behind on a few bills.
my writing's been messy lately. just scattered ideas. i kinda like it better than just writing whole songs in one sitting, cuz you can piece em together and get everything you wanna say down. helping out robin at a show in fairfield this past saturday made my muse reemerge afer being absent for a while.