'is this where i'm supposed to cry?'
so school started yesterday... and i feel no different than i did last week.
could be just a case of the 'backtoschoolforthefirsttimeinayearandahalf' jitters, but it's more than just that.... or so i think.
i really don't know how to talk to new people that i come across. or even people i haven't seen in a long time. i'm not very good at breaking the ice... at all. i'm just like a huge iceberg... stiff, frozen. i just... can't begin a conversation. sometimes i do, but it usually devolves into useless small talk. i think that prevents me from forming and maintaining friendships.
i wish that whenever i'm faced with an obstacle, i can just recover from it, and just flow on with life, instead of kicking myself in the ass because of it for days on end.
just... yesterday in school... yeah it was good to be back, but i just felt anxious.
could be cuz the weather has been so shitty.
could be just a case of the 'backtoschoolforthefirsttimeinayearandahalf' jitters, but it's more than just that.... or so i think.
i really don't know how to talk to new people that i come across. or even people i haven't seen in a long time. i'm not very good at breaking the ice... at all. i'm just like a huge iceberg... stiff, frozen. i just... can't begin a conversation. sometimes i do, but it usually devolves into useless small talk. i think that prevents me from forming and maintaining friendships.
i wish that whenever i'm faced with an obstacle, i can just recover from it, and just flow on with life, instead of kicking myself in the ass because of it for days on end.
just... yesterday in school... yeah it was good to be back, but i just felt anxious.
could be cuz the weather has been so shitty.