I've been thinking about things lately.

[pyra06]

Got back from the show. My brother and Ryan brought one of his chick friends and two of her friends, and it turned out that they were all bitches. I moshed by myself. Well, at that show, it wasnt really moshing...for most of it, it was more like...sponge effect...but at least there was dancing during HelloGoodbye. Haha, they had a guy in a poncho and sombrero and another guy in a beer bottle outfit dancing around the stage. But yah, afterwards we went to In-n-out and they started talking shit about people they didnt even know, and then started complaining about how they need to "work on their nails." I mean...fucking hell...shut up....eh whatever. They were making fun of each other because they didnt fit in with everyone else at the show. Okay...every chick there looked the same as every guy there...and half of them were lesbians (I'm not joking)...I just hate the fucking "scene." Most of those kids dont get that it's not supposed to be about the fucking look, it's about the music...it's probably cuz most of those kids are like...15...I just cant stand immature little kids anymore. They're too young to understand what's important and what's not. None of my friends are too much younger than me anymore. Except Julianne, but we dont talk much; I just check up on her every once in a while. It's also only a year, which isnt much compared to other people I used to hang out with. I guess that's why I just dont care anymore. People come and go. Nothing really stays the same...there's not too much that's worth holding onto. I accept that now, and theres really only 2 people who arent family that I find to be worth my time. I'm not trying to sound stuck up or anything, but no matter what people say, I know that I really dont mean as much to them as they think I do, so I just dont see the point in trying anymore. Okay, I'm starting to forget what I was rambling about...I guess I was trying to say that I'm just letting go. All I need in life is love, music, and art. Well, music is art, so I guess it's just love and art. I'm not saying that I dont want friends and money and stuff, I mean, they're great and all...I'm just saying that I dont need them, and I can really do without them. Most of my friends dont give a shit about me anyways, and I'm just tired of caring. If you dont want to be a part of my life, then you wont be. It doesnt matter to me anymore.

This is how we bleed in audio...
(let down your skin,
let the wind blow through your veins)